just jErM--

2010-11-26T15:57:00.000-08:00

Weather: Sunny
27th November 2010
music: 100 years- Five For Fighting.

It's been really really really long since i've touched this place anyway. It's not that I've stopped blogging anyway, just that it has turned into a form of a journal in camp, which writes about alot of stuffs which sadly i can't post ah. so yup. And i think that might actually start a whole new blog all over again. This time, nicer, better and more proper. It's just amazing on how upon when you read back on your older posts, how much you've grown actually. In the way that you speak, the way that you think, the things that bother you, how relations has all changed up as well. People whom you might actually quarrel with in the past, now, are all your friends, etc.
Journey in AFTC, 1 last month to go, and i'm already missing it. Somehow, it's just funny, and amazing, how we just all start adapting to places, but 1 thing that i must still say is that, in command school, i've never really settled down anyhow in the first place.

A short post, maybe it's time to change the way i blog.

Might be reverting this skin, back to one, which i feel that suits this the most.
and it is indeed time, to move on to a newer blog, thinking of potentialbot, but let's see what i can do.For now, A2, Course badge, the lt's presents, etc. let's finish this thing up, jerms.

-jErM

2010-06-27T08:07:00.000-07:00

Weather: cloudy
27th june 2010
music: -

mymy, many things have happened such that ah, haha, I feel so lazy to update already, but then, tomorrow, a new chapter of life begins, at AFTC, new challenges, new environment(which's good, away from OCS. omg, shiok.), and yes, just new everything, I heard that we'll get our own laptops there so maybe i shall blog from there. its alr 2318hrs and i should be in bed to get a good start to tomorrow morning, but yes. i just somehow feel so worried, I dont know why, just worried in a way. I'm now just thinking, like thinking hard on whether i will be able to pull through the whole 6.5 months anot. I'm already 1/4 way through my NS life(OMG, LIKE FINALLY.), haha, but it's still a heck lot of a way to go. Met up with the section 3 people this weekend, and yes, it feels soooo great to just hang out with 'em once again, and haising flutes, and omg, so many other people. haha. sighs. It just feels great when you're able to be yourself. My siao, noisy talkative self with 'em, it's like, being able to be yourself, being able to say out your thoughts, being able to feel comfortable around them man.

So, in air wing, im quiet, im quiet im quiet. Woa, how many times have i heard that line already man. But i mean that, 1) there's no topic that I can talk to you guys about, 2) all i can do is smile smile smile/laugh laugh laugh. Somehow, the only place that i managed to be myself, is on level 4 at OCS, with weiliang, with loga, with jun hong, with jun hua, with jasper, with ernest man. omg, it just feels so great to be able to be yourself. and of course, with the girls at the opposite block, haha, cadet toh, and kaili. omg, like being some siao gina. That's the real me man. So, right now, I really dont know how to be able to feel comfortable around man. New environment, with people that im okay too, but not say close. but I shall see how things turn out tomorrow. Uncertainty, something that no one likes.

Everyone's saying that AFTC will be great, 8-5, they wont bother you after 5 bla bla bla. But shall just wait and see. Anyhow, block leave's great, but it has passed really fast. Feels great to be able to play flute again, and being under the great conducting of mr quek. Omg, just great. Somehow, I really cant wait for NS to be over man. BAND BAND, FLUTE. OMG. yes. this life of music. sighs.):. but nvm, For now, i shall try my best. Anyhow also, hope that my injuries can heal faster man. please, omg i really hope that my stamina for running hasnt dropped too bad. mm. but for now yes, i shall sleep soon man.

sighs, praying that everything'll be okay. to another quarter of NS life. here goes..

-jErM

2010-06-05T20:21:00.001-07:00

weather; stormy
6th June 2010
music: SNSD run devil run album

haha, i know i kindda havent updated this place in a horrendously long time such that no one will be reading this anymore, or perhaps if you'll pop by, haha, you might actually get to see this post. But, yes, things have been really busy of late here in OCS. Still, yes, the taiwan trip is still yet to be updated, every single thing that has happened on weekends since OCS have still yet to be updated. Havent met alot of people in a really really long time le; section 3, 22/08 and everybody else. It's like, everyone now is all busy up with their lives, including me. So yes. Still, we're all being chased through the motion of life right now. And i find that as we grow up, our worlds start to become more complex. Life is no longer about, just go school, finish up homework in 30 mins, and get it all correct and nicely done, and spend the rest of the day on tv, computer or perhaps just a lovely walk at the park. Life now as you grow up is about meeting people who are complicated, meeting even more adversities and difficulties, about seeing people fighting only for themselves, and yes, you'll just have to keep finding yourself swallowing up everything if you wanna even bother surviving in this world.

The life in OCS is really not easy. Till now, I really miss the simple life of BMT. The life where when i can book in, looking forth to spending weeks and weeks with dear section 3, weeks where i can just concentrate on nothing but physical stuff. The life in OCS is like, BMT level 100, it's like things have changed so much. It's no longer simple. Everyone here is damn freaking smart. They can think, think very complicated and well in fact. Everyone here is smart. and all that they care about is how to using their smarts to care for themselves. By luck, perhaps like really by my gods, Life in NS has indeed been smooth so far. Losing 22kg, surviving BMT, even thinking about passing IPPT, even getting into OCS, and getting into air wing, or for those who dont understand, to get to be an officer in the airforce just for 2 years when most will have to sign on. Everyone here is so complex, all they care about, is for themselves. About chao kenging about, woa, i dont know what to say. The sirs here say that if by Tuesday, the discipline of the wing doesnt buck up, we'll all get confined the following week. Regardless of what others are feeling, I already am feeling like, yes, we all are gonna get confined. Everyone's, well most people are just selfish i guess. It's okay. I'm already used to it. I really cant wait for the last 2 weeks of service term to fly pass. and yes, next week, things are gonna get really physical. I really hope that i can survive the whole mess man. Be it for parents and sgt yj to put on the rank for me in commissioning parade, or be it for personal achievement, I just really want to clear service term first at least. Silver for ippt. omg, please let it happen. and yes, pro term at AFTC.

Everyone's promising me that life will be better at AFTC. that, yes, the discipline will be more lax(which might not be such a good thing), and yes, everyone there will talk to you with more respect, with more understanding, and yes, the C3 people here are good. Btw, if you guys dont know, the job that i've been streamlined into doing, is C3-control, coordination and communications, ie. an officer that works at a control tower, to orchestrate air traffic. Yes, the C3 people here at least are okay. and yes, the impression of the Air force and the impression of officers have changed drastically since I've entered this screwed up place man. really. I dont know how to feel about things anymore, i dont know what the hell im doing. Just that, in lectures, I am really getting sick of slides that contain full of words, monotonous lecturers and they talk to you expecting you to understand everything already. Maybe cos I'm a simple person. i dont know. really, till now i really dont know. I dont know if i've made the right choice to enter OCS. but still, yes, i shall follow through the motion of life for now. See where it takes me. I'm pretty sure that i can tahan this, although i'll groan and everything along the way. But yes for now. I'm just hoping that all this can end fast man.

well, the weeks to come wont be easy. and yes, might have even less time to blog le. You guys take care okay. Talk to you guys soon.

-jErM

2010-04-09T18:18:00.000-07:00

Weather: cloudy/grey skies
10th April 2010
music: my whole mp3 playlist!, esp snsd songs man, deprived of it for a week alr
event: a day after POP. =/.

Hey hey, as promised, here's a pictury wordy post, am supposed to upload pictures from POP, but the thing is that the camera card reader isnt working ><, dang!, haha, but its okay, ill upload it at the next post man. anyhow, recorded myself playing flute here! hope the video works, it's xin yuan bian li tie from ming zhong, cos was testing out the camera, haha, so here, enjoy okay!

^and here's an updated picture of myself holding my flute in my room man. hahah. sighs, changes and changes.

Event 1: reflections upon BMT/ part 1.

^Anyhow, here's a picture of me during enlistment day which ive already updated it onto facebook! hahaha. BMT's amazing i guess. It just sucks to have to go through the activites again and again, tolerate all the nonsense that other sections might give, the nonsense that the sergeants(well o platoons) and the W.(of which ill never ever acknowledge him as my PC anyway), yeah, but still, im gonna miss living with my section a lot. Right now, after POP, i just feel kindda empty, like how sergeant yj's feeling. Like, usually weekends we rush to do whatever we need to complete, before booking in on monday again to meet up with sect 3. But now, no, life's gonna change. It feels really sad, like parting with 2208, and now with this great group of guys. Everyone's gonna be streamlined to all over the place again, and yes, i guess, this is how life is. But one good thing is that, at least, long lasting deep friendships are being made, and yes, thank you so much, sergeant yee jek, Lieutanant Aaron Tan, SECTION 3, platoon 1 for making my life so enjoyable in BMT. I mean, really, without you guys, I dont know how ill survive through BMT, weight loss of 22kg would not have been possible, getting a silver for IPPT wouldnt have been possible. I mean, yeah effort on my part, but it is you guys there to cheer me on and motivate me that actually makes me to want to put in more effort. And of course, my gods, yeah, really, every week, thank you so much for bao you-ing me throughout this whole thing man, like yeah, like a garter appeared out of nowhere for fire movement drill when i lost mine, and H and S were screaming like hell alr. hahaha. thanks so much man. really. okay, shall elab more on the next post, but thats about it for now.

Event 2: Touring NTU with hon!

haha. yay hon! omg, i know that you'll definitely read up till this part!(:. hahahah. thank you so much for posting up the pictures on fb! hahaha. anyhow, the pictures are really pretty! So yes, the day started out with me and hon going down to NTU to take a look, cos i missed the open house for NTU/NUS due to the confinement from SIT test. hahaha. We walked around NIE first, and woa, the school's really big, its like a mini TJ implanted in the whole campus. haha. But, i really like the pond decos outside NIE, where me and jud took some pics using her phone. haha. the scenery's really nice dont you think

We walked all the way down to the engineering school thereafter, (which's reallly big!), haha, and then to the school of biological sciences. haha. Though I'm really sad that it's one small building in a super super super super big campus. hahaa. Headed down to the WKWSI thereafter, and yes, haha, the rooftop and study environment seems really nice!. haha.

ta-da. hahaha. but yeah. hahaha. still, I think that im going more for NUS than for NTU. Yeah, cos i wanna study on marine biology, which only seems to be offered at NUS as an honours year project. hahaha. but still, no matter what, i guess, opening up choices for yourself is a good thing. hahaha. But still, i really enjoyed the day out touring NTU with hon man! hahahah. man. havent met up with you guys for a really long time alr! hahha. Ill meet you guys after the taiwan trip next week okay! haha. =D.

Event 3: Mn's bday chalet!

^after so so many years, here's a shot of hsc flute section! hahaha. though still many people not there, but really had a lot of fun that day. It's been so long since everyone met up! hahaha. but its damn funny, cos for 10 minutes, they cant get use to how i look. hahahaha. damn funny man. played murderer, and all sorts of games, talked around, chatted a bit here and there. haha. Really cant wait for the next meet up. Yeah man, flutes!(;

event 4: Proper shots of life so far

Here's a summary of life so far, since p6, enjoy man.

Sighs, so fast orh, life, haha, just like that 18 years plus have flew by alr, soon, just so soon, I think ORD will be here. but still ah, aiya, 1 year 6 months, long time to go ah. ahhaha. but still yes, i'm really appreciative of all the great things in life that has happened so far man. yeah. ahhaha. more to come for this section okay~

event 5: Me and mum!

^ this was when i was sec 3 at the airport

^ this was on enlistment day, at tekong's canteen!

^ and this is now. hahaha. more to come too on this section, cos im lazy to go dig up photos. haha. but dont you think that mum's so cute! hahaha. =D. but still, yes man, thanks mum so far for taking care of me so well in this life man. really, without all the love and support that you've given to nurture/take care of me, I would probably be some pai kia out on the streets man. hahaha.I'm really sorry if ive been a bad boy at many times, and perhaps even rude, but still, thanks so much for never ever stopping to give me your unconditional love and support. haha, which i guess, i'll never repay even in a lifetime. haha. but still, yes, the aim of this, to show how much both of us changed since the day i was born man. haha.(:.

event 6: Ice skating outing with rs, sh and la

haha, not really ice skating, cos we didnt go in the end, haha, but still, we went to watch a movie.. but we did take some pictures. haha. credits to la for the one that me and ah rong are in. haha.(;.

Event 7: section outing with section 3.(:

Although not everybody's there, but still, haha, alot of people turned up for it!(:. haha. still, it was really fun, really, the best ever time in life that i had spending time with people man. haha. the source where i get strength, motivation and fun from. haha. yay section 3. haha, went to eat yuki yaki that day, and shopped around, before going down to people's park center to look out for the Taiwan trip man. haha.(:

^Francis, weili and jia ren!(:

^ me, wenyao and jason(:

^ me, weili and lau man! yay lau. haha.

^and we went crazy. haha.(:

^ Me and Tung's zi pai shot. hahah. yay, cool.

^ haha!

^ nice orh!. hahaha.

^ and dear jason! hahahaha.

woa. haha. okay, i still feel fatigued from the route march(24km) yesterday. SIAO AH. hahahha. but still, it's still sad ah. i mean, like 5 months eh! and everyone has to part);. but still, yes, i really do hope that everyone keeps in contact! yes, we most probably will. still, yes taiwan next week, sentosa outing with 2208, before i move on to my next unit. hahaha. yes. okay everyone, going off to rest. take care okay! cya guys soon.

-jErM

"Today is the day we _ _ _, today is the day we _ _ _, today is the day we _ _ _ and we like to _ _ _ _ _." HAHA. yay. platoon one platoon one platoon one, we are the champions, we are the winners, we will always be the best. long live platoon one, and longer live, platoon one section 3!

2010-04-04T01:05:00.000-07:00

weather: cloudy/grey skies gonna rain
4th April 2010
music: snsd songs!

Heyhey, haha, i kindda know that i promised to update this weekend, but blogger isnt allowing me to post up the pictures or anything. meanwhile, its a few more minutes to book in and there isnt much time. but this is the last week in tekong, with drills competition and the 24km graduation march. Its scary but still, yes, we'll all survive it somehow. So i'll just update on the next book out, when i pop, and am no longer a recruit. hahah. meanwhile, im heading to taiwan for a 5d4n trip with section mates(army). hahaha, will be looking forth and yes! shall update you guys about how everything's like soon okay! meanwhile, take care everyone, and yes, promise, there'll be a pictury wordy post again!

-jErM

2010-03-28T01:38:00.000-07:00

weather: cloudy, grey
28th march 2010
music: run devil run, echo- SNSD
event: ah xiang jie's bday

haha, i know i havent updated this place in a really long time. omg. yes, haha, lots of things have happened since the last update, which means that theres gonna be a really long post next week. Its another one plus hour to book in, but i really hope that there're no more activities back in camp for today, and next week shall be a 4 day week. Anyhow, yeowch man, i banged my knee bone on the monkey bar today whilst playing it at grandma's house today. Dang, ive got no idea at all how to continue with lunges and horizontals in CPT1. nvm ah, really hope it heals sooon. Anyhow, yup, lots of things have happened. Views on issues changed, happy/sad/stressful events have happened, so yeah shall update soon. Anyhow, its 2 more weeks to Passing Out Parade. I mean, since the very first day, everyone has been looking forth to this day. But surprisingly, Im starting to feel slightly sad. Cos, this means that youre gonna be separated from the people which you have lived for the past 5 months day in out. I mean, yeah there'll be meet ups and stuff, but i guess, yeah, gonna miss them a hell lot. Anyhow, but as much as that, im glad that at least, i do not need to tolerate W's arrongance or H's mad screams, or best still K's totalitarian way of treating people. yeah. hahaha. So yup, okay man, shall be logging off, take care to those out there okay. Ill cya guys next week.

-jErM
NS's cycle is like this: before the activity, youre like, shit, its coming, during the activity, you're like, AHHH, FASTER END, FASTER END THIS HELL, DANG IT, FASTER!, and after the activity, youre like, OMG. I SURVIVED IT. HOHOHO. TEEHEE. WAHAHA. and the cycle just repeats and repeats and repeats until POP or maybe even ORD i guess. yeah. haha.

2010-03-06T00:31:00.001-08:00

weather: cloudy

6th March 2010

music: sute ke dani- final fantasy X OST

Congratulations to 2208 for having done so well in the A level exams man seriously, and yes i mean every single one of us. (ESP THE PG) HAHA. AND YES, NBS, WE'VE DONE OURSELVES SUPER PROUD, ESP YOU, AND YOU. hahaha. you both ah, seriously. haha IMBA. WOO.

But of course out of all the highness, ive to thank my gods, seriously, without them i wouldnt know what to do, but i thought that i was gonna score really really horrendously badly, like really really, my dear wonderful parents, whove always been so so so supportive and sure of me in my entire life, no matter its an up or down, they will always be there, and as long as ive tried my best they know, and thanks for being proud of me, cos there's no better parents that i can ever ask for. My friends, 22/08, flute section(TJ), esp my study gangs, haha, thank you so much, teh teh, shawn, sihui, lavina, annette, thank you so so much for everything, seriously without you guys ah, alot of things would have been impossible, and of course, my teachers, SO MANY OF THEM, omg, hahaha, it would be really long to list them out but, mr daniel ng, mrs lena lim, mr gan, mr kao, ye lao shi, dong laoshi, mr ho, mr goh(aiya, just thank him lah). but really, thank you so so much everyone so far, I mean, yes, though my results its not Straight As like many people, but still its super super decent enough to land me into a local university with the course that i want i think. but i really hope that i can enter a good course, as in a course that i would enjoy for 4 years. yes.

Anyhow, now, i can finally finally understand why big boys cry for their mum, or why boys even cry for their parents in the first place, really your parents are the ones who will treat and love you the best in your life. After field camp, ive seriously learnt to appreciate so many things in life. What exactly happened was, the scoldings received were plenty, vulgar, fierce, pierces your heart till it bleeds kindda fierce, during the weekend back, even just simple nagging and words and acts of concern from your mum can just make you feel so touched, really, and just suddenly, before i left back for camp, tears just came to my eyes, and i just started crying. Drama much but yes. mum, dad, really really, i love you guys a heaven lot, to the max max core. Thank you guys so so much for providing everything and even extra more that a parent can even give to their child. really.but really ah, after field camp, i reallly really appreciate so many things more, like just sitting on concrete, being able to wear t shirt and shorts. omg. yes. so many things. really, i guess army experience so far is tough, really, but it will help people to grow strong mentally physically and be so much more appreciative of everything that you have.

anyhow, gonna be stuck in tekong for another 2 weeks, with reallly tough activities upcoming, am really dreading the attires though cos its heavy. But somehow, i know that ill survive it all over again like how ive been surviving. btw, my ippt scores did show some improvement espeically for pull ups, i really really hope that i can pass/ do well for ippt by the end of BMT. yes i must, for dad, mum and everyone else.

Anyhow, once again, congrats 2208, really really happy for everyone and myself, and yes, we're one class, the class that rocks. DONT LOSE CONTACT OKAY. hahaha.(:. all rights, going cycling now i guess with the hsc flutes, few of them actually okay, cya guys soon.

^^ add on, omg, in an hours time, ill be booking in back to camp for the next 2 weeks, omg, no civilization, just screams from sergeants, live ranges, SIT test, leopard crawls from point A to B. omg. haha. but nvm, its okay. ill live through it somehow again. haha. anyhow, thank you so much lyn, lh, mn and amanda for the great cycling trip yesterday evening-night, haha, it was really a great de stresser session where i laughed my guts out like mad. omg, haha, cycled from home all the way to changi village, which was something i need to train my lower body strength. really hope the next 2 weeks will turn out fine. okay i dont have much time left on my hands, take care everyone! Somehow, just somehow, ill live through everything! hahaha.(:. jiayou jiayou everybody!

-jErM

2010-02-19T17:57:00.000-08:00

Weather: cloudy to the max!
20th february 2010
music: oh!-snsd, showshowshow-snsd

Heyhey, haha, as promised, pictury wordy post. whew, its been long since i did one of these, but the thing is that i gotta try to type fast, cos there's ice skating, and i gotta do some pull ups later, on sgt yj's pull up regime. Yes, i have to jiayou man, seriously, im not gonna give up, and yes, ippt, i shall conquer you man. yes, i have to jiayou. anyhow, here goes!

First: SEOHYUN.

omg. hahaha. Ive been crazing over snsd since like last year, when gee was introduced to me by my sisters who was suddenly into kpop, and till now, im really addicted to all their songs, like gee, which i never got sick of after so many months since last year! close to 6-7 months alr, which is unusual since at most, i can get addicted to a song for 1 month. With their tell me your wish, chocolate love, etc, omg, they're just so talented and imba! anyhow, when watching their mv's and stuff, i saw seohyun! who's really so talented, innocent and everything, omg, isnt she just pretty! and even so, her personality, which i watched on the mtv seohyun special, is like, omgg, so innocent and just, yes, innocent, really respectful to her parents, her snsd mates and everything. haha. omg, im such a mad boy, but yes, if i could get her autograph some day, omg, that'll be so cool. anyhow, enjoy some of her shots man! sighs, haha, i mean no harm or anything, but somehow, i wish i could really meet a girl like that in spore someday. hahaha. that'd be awesome.

Event 2: Growing up.

Just reflecting on the past 18 plus years of my life, I just somehow realized that time just has passed so fast. Really, from when i was just an innocent kid.

(thats kh and me man)

Till primary school.. where you do your homework for 30 mins, and get to enjoy the rest of the day watching tv, on the com, or going down to the park and play...

(that was in p5)

haha, i didnt include in the secondary school shots man. but anyhow, Yes, secondary school passed fast. Though going through it felt long, remembered that i really enjoyed the sec 2 year and the last half of the sec 4 year. in band, under the guidance of mr and mrs chua, playing kazenomai, airs for wind orch, and alot of other nice pieces, having to conquer that solo in jungle fantasy, And just yes, secondary school life, meeting so many nice teachers. and everything. ahh. hahahaha. But i will forever remember that 37/41 position i got in the first half of the sec 4 year, worse ever position ive ever gotten in my life. hahaha. But then, yeah, the tremendous improvement up to 9th in level 9th in class. hahaha.

to j1,

and j2, which i realized now that i've really fattened up alot, i guess due to the tremendous amount of eating that i do when i get really stressed up from studying. in jc, i guess i didnt really enjoy myself as much i guess. everyday felt like a stressful f uped day, like studying, and more studying, having to deal with relations, handling all sorts of characters and everything, though, i really did enjoy the fiesta times, the first half year of band life, and ALLL the time spent with 2208, and just crapping alot with everyone, to the remedials with mr peck(really enjoyable), mr daniel ng, haha, econs tuition with mr simon ng, mrs lena lim! the BEST EVER CT i can ever ask for, its just really sad that she has to leave):. omg. so many things ah, and the many much fun that i had with the 2208 pseudo class, ice skating, ubin, watching up! etc. omg, fun. hahahaha. but the studying part was really frustrating, cos it just seems like no matter how hard you try to get your A, it always turn out as a jsut pass, and no matter how you try to remedy the problem, it just backfires. hahaha. But i really hope that A level results will turn out fine man. haha. just praying. then yeah prom came, which i now think i look like some kou rou bao then. haha.

Till now man.

I guess so far, in life, NS though really tough, and not to mention that next week is gonna be one of the most challenging weeks in NS life ever(like not bathing for 4-5 days, exposed to mud, sand and the fury of mother nature's elements), but anyhow, i really love being with section 3, but i really hate rushing and rushing, its just tiring, like last night, wth, seriously, ive got nothing much to comment. But i really really miss lt at, ml and s a lot as compared to a and w. omg. i really dont like them ah, im just sorry. but anyhow, for those who dont understand, its okay, but just anyhow, yes its a lot of rushing. But looking back in life, I cant believe that im gonna turn 19 this year alr, time is really passing really quickly, but its okay. I guess, right now, the most important thing is that you have to treasure and make the best use of whatever time that you can get to do and concentrate on things, so that you can get the best out of it. Cos really, there's really no time to lose. haha. anyhow, am just really glad that i managed to pull out an almost impossible feat, that is to lose alot alot of weight, and now looking better. So, i guess, the next feat, shall be ippt. yes i can do this. go jerms, for once, lets make yourself proud in the physical aspect. and yes, i wont let lt at down, sgt yj down, the mo which was reluctant at first down. yes. and lastly, myself down. yes. i have to jiayou. though the coming up ippt will be $%^&*( cos of the rushed timings everyday, and like, i havent been training much on broadjump and pull up, nvm, i must jiayou. haha. next impossible feat to pull off man. yes. lets do this!

Event 3: latest class outing to wild wild wet!

hahaha, I really cant wait for the ice skating outing later on, haha, its just a real pity all the camera's at home ah, cmi alr. Like the ones that i use to use have spoilt. -.-. then the ones which are working have to plug to the com -.-.. dumb. haha. anyhoo, went to wild wild wet with sh, yt, j and ah la! hahaha. had fun that day! really. omg. hahaha. after 18 years of my life, i finally spent a bomb to enter wild wild wet, oo lala's fun! though i think jurong east is alot better and cheaper, but i really did have fun that day as well, screaming down the slides, enjoying the lazy river, teaching them butterfly stroke. haha. 2208's just awesome. i really really am thankful for the great friends that ive made from 2208, section 3(ns), and 4e1(wn, kr, don, wx, etc), and pri school, friends from band, esp flutes. hahaha. reallly, thank you god, for allowing me to meet such awesome people in life man. hahaha.

us 5 by the pool. hahaha.

and then, they strike a muscular pose! hahaha, which i blurly didnt know-.-.. hahaha. you can compare it to i think 3 shots above. ahahha. but i really cant wait for the ice skating outing later. And yes, ih ave to enjoy myself as much as i can, before hell than hell resumes next week. woa freak, i really hope thigns will turn out fine, and i wont be such a blur cock, cos yes, next week is one week where i'll really have to try my best man. haha.

event 4: CNY!

this shot was taken 18 years ago..

and 18 years later, we are all at the same spot, and we retook another shot.

As i said, its really amazing how time can just zoom pass without you knowing, so yes. haha. anyhow, thats me, kh and w. hahaha, credits to ping for the decos and stuff, really nice. hahaha. cny this year was extra special to me i guess, gambling sessions on majhong, black jack. and cos when youre in ns, every single second spent in civilization is heaven it ell you. really heaven. even simple things like walking become simple life pleasures. haha. so yes, with my sisters, kh and w, we had alot of fun at ah ma's house, with bluff and alot of other things. hahaha.

this was taken at er shu gong's house! ^

and yes, all the grandkids at ah ma's house!^. ahhaha, its too bad that i didnt maanage to take one at nai's house. hahaha. but its okay lah, can get it soon though. hahaha.

^there, hahaha, me, my sisters, kh and w. AWESOME MAN. AWESOME. hahahaha. so much fun and happiness ah, really really enjoyed catching up and everything. ahhaha.

^and with the sisters that ive been with since they were born. hahaha. really really love them loads. haha.

At nai's hosue this year, things were still okay. haha. KOOMA AND NAI'S FOOD AH, HEAVEN. omg. OH YES, the steam boat at ah ma's house, and the spread that kooma cooked at nai's house. COMPARED TO TEKONG ITS SUPER DUPER DUPER HEAVEN. OMG. HAHAHAHAH. IMBA TO THE MAX AH. lots of abalone, mushrooms, veges, etc, omg my description is bad, but trust me, its the best ever food that ive tasted in a while. haha. and MUM'S COOKING AND SOUP. AHHHH! HAHAHAHHA. miss that loads man. really. hahaha. anyhow, didnt get to play much with jovan and chloe this time):. haha. but then, heres a happy shot of dear jovan!

so caught up with uncles aunties, gu jiong ah, gu jie, ang korkor, ah xiang jie, ah chun kor, xm jie, and everything, and yes, first thing they all said, is that i slimmed down, and on off. so topic this year, slimming down. -.-.. hahaha. but anyhow, still had fun, lok sok(sixth uncle) came back also, with brandon(who's grown up quite abit!), new addition bryan, and also, yes, caught up with kooma and everything. omg. with courtesy from ping's cam and ah xiang jie's cam, heres some shots from nai's house!

^ me and mum.(:.

^ us 4 with nainai((:. yay nainai!((:

^adding wasabi and puchi, cutie dogs. hahaha..(:

^and me and ping. hahaha.

all right, so till here, i shall stop, time for pull ups and stuff, guess i gtg! but anyhow, thanks for reading up to here man. JIAYOU JIAYOU in life man, though i know alot of girls now are working, and guys are fretting over NS, but its okay, we all can survive man, and yes, lets get through with one more week. after this week i guess things shall be fine. and yes, i will pass my pull ups and broad jump with flying colours. Sgt yj, ill never forget this line that you said ystdy man, "you already worked so hard to stay here, so make the best use of it and pass your ippt dont waste it", as i said, in camp, the only 3 commanders which i really respect, is sgt yj, lt at, and lt ml. yes. The most ever awesome display of leadership, organization and everything, unlike the fucked up PC right now, seriously fucked up. But its okay, just keeping in mind the people that i love, that i respect, that have been so patient with me, i shall try to excel. yes. hahaha.

all rights. stopping here.take care okay! but the next time i can blog will be some time later. (unless i update on the ice skating trip!). hahaha. okay, take care!(:

-jErM(:

oh! oh! oh oh! badu sarangeh, ah ah ah ah, madu madu hey...(:

2010-02-06T23:51:00.000-08:00

weather: cloudy/sunny
7th february 2010
music: shan hu hai- jay chou, oh!-snsd

hahaha, omg, my blog is so dead, im so sorry piccoluterhuistjermain, but its okay lah, anyhoo, shall do a short post before i head back to camp in 3 hours plus time.

I guess many many things have happened since the last time i blogged, it has got to a point where its really tremendously too much that ive decided that i shall not blog about all those ba, you guys can go to facebook to check out what has been happening, like that 8 well spent days before i got enlisted, and all the fighting to cut and bring down my fat percentage which is really a really arduos and close to impossible task since the percentage was awkwardly high at that point of time.

NS so far has been, hmm, hard, but somehow you'll find yourself enduring through everything no matter how much it sucks. Its like before the activity starts, you're like shit, okay here comes, during the activity, you'll be like screaming and screaming AHHH END END END, shit shit shit, faster end!, and nearing the end, you'll be like, woa, okay jiayou jiayou last part. and when it finally ends, the feelings of shuang-ness cannot be expressed in pure words man. seriously. The following week will be tough as ive already seen the schedule, but its okay, you'll just find yourself surviving the next week of toughness again, but it just sucks cos of the 2 horrendously big abrasions at the heels, and everytime it bangs against the boots, it sucks man seriously. I hope that it can quickly recover though! ve been doing alot of laps in the pool too, like say aobut 50 laps every weekend, except for this one cos of the huge blister. swimming is so much more fun than, yeah, ns. hahah.

Remiscing the past(i know the spelling is wrong, but ignore k), i dont know, I'd rather not go through 2 years of jc again if given the choice. omg. its so hard. But so far in ns, my section mates are pure right awesome. No matter what the fucking wayang kings(some people ah) of the platoon or how hard the sergeants might actually go on us with ridiculously stupid things, I still think yes, its good ah, at least, now ive slimmed down so much, and learnt so many more things that cant be learnt in everyday life. But cant be blogged ah, cos, yeah ns stuff.

But no matter what, ve still been meeting up with the 2208 people, which really rocks. haha. oh! and i bought a new hoodie which i really like, and ve been trying out grade 5 theory. life of music and exercise right now. omg. hahahahaha. and yeah. really its okay lah i guess. Cant wait to see the sect 3 people again tonight, to go through another arduos week with them. Am gonna miss them like hell once bmt ends man. speaking of which, i'd better train hard to pass physical aspects, like pull ups):. yup yup. must jiayou ah. okay, then i shall cya guys soon. Shall post up pics and report on the eventful weekends that i might have okay. hahaha. Gosh, its been long since i took a picture of myself. lol.

take care okay to everyone out there who still bothers coming here, hahaha. and for those which i havent seen for really long, really hope you all are still doing fine man, though we're all not talking, but still, yeah, will still get upadtes bout you guys from your fb and your blogs. you all must jiayou okay. haha. omg.

-jErM

Sgt yj, lt at, you guys have my salutes man, really, salutes x 100.

2009-12-10T16:38:00.001-08:00

weather: cloudy
11th december 2009
music: time for miracles- adam lambert
event: entering NS.

okay i kindda know that i shouldve done an update after A levels and trust me, the events are horrendously alot. haha, but still i guess ill have to postpone that alr, its time, yeah, its time to enter this 2 year thing that ive been like, i dont know, not looking forth so much in my life. NS. I really hope things will turn out fine, all i know its that i just have to breathe, stay calm, dont be such a sotong, just be okay and be myself. Things should go fine. hahaha. But yeah, still cant help but feel nervous/scared/sianned/sad. yup. But ahh well, i guess its time to accept this fate, and yeah, time to start out on a new phase of life. Gonna miss you guys A HELL LOT. you guys know who you are right! yeah you know ill miss you guys a hell lot ah. cant wait okay! cant wait to see all of you all again. I dont know how transformed ill be, but i hope it wont be too drastic.

okay! cya guys in 2 weeks time/ months time. take care okay!

-jErM

2009-11-03T17:11:00.001-08:00

weather: cloudy
4th November 2009
music: -
event: 6 days left before A levels.

haha. I kindda know I havent and I shouldnt be touching this place at this point in time, but yeah, i'll be updating this place right after A levels okay. haha. so worrying la, like 6 days left. haha. sighs. Anyhow, whilst trying my best working hard, worrying sick for As, etc. I know that im gonna have to give this one my best ever shot, ever. Yes can do this. hahaha. anyhow, yesterday was kooma's bday, and yup, haha, saw jojo and chloe again. Its really just, weird, but whenever you see them, it's just somehow your troubles are just gone. haha. perhaps Im exaggerating, but yeah lor. sighs. haha. anyhow, yeah, am gonna be enlisted to NS on the 11th December 2009, which is gonna be quite soon. nevertheless, ill be chionging hard for As, and yup, doing stuff that I wanna do/can afford to do before I go in.

okay, good luck everyone! jiayou(:

-jErM

2009-10-02T20:50:00.000-07:00

weather: cloudy
3rd October 2009
music: gee-snsd, into the new world- snsd, a goose's dream-Beethovens virus OST
event: mid autumn's festival

one day after prelims, im feeling so bushed, and taking these few days to recharge before heading on to the final battle. haha. new blogskin, nice and simple aye. haha. though it still took me sometime. yeah man, going mad over quizzes on facebook, tampering with blogskins, bloghopping, msn, ROCK RIOT. YEAH MAN YEAH. HAHA. and going crazy,and well, since this place is so dead, cos, theres no event to update at all instead of studying studying and, sighs, more studying, im just so happy that i can put it down for a while. Yes i need this break, before all the reality, drama and horror returns next week. D;.

anyhow, Ive also removed the music/mp3 player segment, haha, cos i figured out that it could annoy people, and yeah. haha. but really, life has been stressful of up to late, its not as though ive not been working hard. yes, but i really am very tired. Better take the chance this week to rest off.

anyhow! Pseudo class is going to ECP later at 5 to roller blade, cycle and stuff. haha. looking forth and yes, im going to bring my camera! I hope that the weather would be windy later! hahaha. because, tmr, its intensive econs tuition the whole day. haha. sighs. all rights, off to listen more to snsd and super junior. hahaha. and maybe when i return shall blog abit bout todays trip.

anyhow, everyone, you have to hang in there okay, be it promos or As, I really wish that everyone will do well I hope, must give it the last push, effort, and inject it at full blast to the skins of these exams all right!

all right, ill cya guys round!

-jErM

p.s. anyhow, i really miss 74067, really wish to go back and touch it again, but i guess cannot alr. boohoo. so, im going to buy a flute after As and train back again, tried dions flute and i sounded super loud and air-ier. sian la, all my prowress gone. hahahah. ahh well! catch ya guys round.

2009-09-18T07:16:00.000-07:00

weather: cloudy, rainy
18th september 2009
music: ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni OST, gee-SNSD

Im feeling damn demoralized now man. seriously. its just the first day of prelims, and yet, i think ive already found so many errors with myself already. oh manz. Smack right in the middle of prelims, i totally know that i shouldnt be, and dont have the capacity and time to even feel like that. But im just so demoralized. There're still many more papers to go, and yeah, battle morale is so low now man. I dont know whats wrong, but just im just feeling so damn sad right now. gah. nvm la. i have to buck up. Chionged abit of chem today. Ill have to keep trying man. left eyes twitching alot, right sometimes, oh manz. really hope that it'll stop twitching but im feeling so uber tired now. Maybe should rest and wake up early morrow to chiong abit of math, then ill head on to econs.

man, this sucks.

-jErM

2009-08-29T19:13:00.000-07:00

Weather: rainy
30th August 2009
music: ming zhong zhu ding wo ai ni- OST

帅呆了！真的帅呆了！哈哈！woa finally, another cert back here with me alr.(:. hahahaha. yay! at least now its settled. haha. my life saving course, well at least for the year, thats if i get into NS during December. haha. Theres tuition later cos i decided to pon yesterday's one cos i was doing chem/math. so ya loh. YES. hahahahahhaha. and now, all thats left is NS. and then ill trim out my belly and like AAAAAHH! hahahhaha! then earn some muscles! yay. and then shock everyone like later in next year. yes, i can do this(:. hahaha. but for now, yeah. thats cool man. love the cert. haha.

yup. okay i think im going back to study for now. oh mans. I hope i didnt waste too much time alr. yes i must jiayou. today's gonna be a good day. and next week's gonna be a great week :D. hahaha. yay. mmm. but im still wondering whether i should go back HSC/MBS this year. but i think i should at least go take a peek. haha. okay for now, im going back to my books. yes. lets do well this prelim. last chance last chance! lets go!

-jErM

2009-08-26T08:18:00.000-07:00

weather: Cloudy
26th august 2009
music: You and Me-lifehouse
event: vans bday

lol. month of bdays. vans, xys, s's one this friday, here and there everywhere.

Im discouraged, disheartened. I needa find the strength and motivation to get myself back on track.

20-22 days left. Im scared and frightened stiff. So much to study. But im just gonna try my best.

With this phrase that has always worked best on me since ive ever got in here.

"last time, last time. The VERY LAST exam here alr. LAST TIME. must do it. and give it your best shot. must really jiayou, cannot be like that alr"

well, apart from that, sucumbing to the temperaments of others. I really dont understand why, sometimes we can just fight over small stuff, we can just get scared of others for no particular reason. and well, just i dont know. Home now is like. mmm. Nai's a lot better. :D. thats the good part, but well. hahaha. All she does, literally, is watching TV and sleeping. haha. Cool hor. Oh yeah, and oftenly asking me and my sisters, (my sisters, esp S) to do stuff. But aiya, its okay. hahaha.

and well, to be honest, D, im really sorry. Ive already have had enough man. Mornings, and nights, whenever i greet you and its like, theres no response. Its a kindda happy then greet thing, not happy then dont greet thing. and like, whatever happened to all the Sundays that we all used to spend together. With you bringing us out for lunches/dinners and stuff. I know that now, the ever so impending prelims and A levels are coming up. But i dont know. Somehow, I feel myself distancing from you already. Somehow, all i can say is that, I dont know about you, and you dont know about me. Somehow, I really wish that we could learn to understand each other better. Sometimes I wish that you can like go swimming with me, or teach me cool stuff like what I see on TV and movies. Perhaps im fantasizing too much. and yeah, but then, somehow, have you ever asked how stressed I am at school? or hows school? not even a word. I know work's tough, but somehow or other, why dont you just try school now man. seriously. its not as easy as it looks. Somehow i wish that I could open up to you. But whenever I leave home, youre still sleeping, and whenever Im asleep then you return home. And well, even if when both of us are around, if its not asking me to do this, is do that. Whenever us 4 are doing work, also will kenna asked to do something. Somehow, Mum's knowing all the things that're happening in my life. I know that youre providing for us, as the breadwinner and everything, but, somehow, I just wish that more time could be spent. Thats why, sometimes i wonder whatever happened to all the Sunday dinners. Its been long since our family had a good time sitting down, just for a dinner. ALL 6 of us. but you know what. With my A levels, with my sisters' O levels, with my another sister's streaming exams, and the current recession and stress. I guess, i dont forsee that very soon. Nvm. just take it that im ranting. humph. Its jc when we are all supposed to get even more mature. Surprisingly, in ways, we are all still childish man.

Discouraged. disheartened. worried sick.

but still, last time last time last time! I can do it! jiayou jiayou. i can do it. have to pull myself back man. yes i must.

-jErM

2009-07-25T10:36:00.003-07:00

im just feeling really tired now, omg, can i give up? but still, its 4 more months. aiyo, results like that. then, mmm, nvm, yes, i should press on.

2009-07-19T05:23:00.000-07:00

weather: cloudy
19th July 2009
Music: can you hear me-beethoven's virus OST

jogeumman apado nunmulnayo
gaseumi solichyeoyo
geudae apeul geudae gyeoteul jinamyeon
ontong sesangi geudaeinde
geudaeman geulineunde
geudae apeseon sumeul jukyeoyo

naege geudaega inyeoee anin geucheoreom
geujeo seuchinun sunganin geulcheoreom
seupgae nal jinajineun geudae gyeotae
ddo dagaga han georeumjocha
chae ttel su eopseuljeelado

seoseongige hae nunmuljigae hae..

babocheoreom aeecheoreom
charalee geunyaeng oseobeoryeo

jeomjeom daga seolsurok
jaggu geobi najiman
ee sarangeun meomchul suga eopnaboa

wae nae sarangman deodingeojyo
nae sarangman himdeuljyo
geudae apeul geudae gyeote isseodo
ontong sesangi geudaeinde
geudaeman boeenunde
geudae apeseon nan meon goman boayo.

naege geudaega ggok majimak in geocheoreom
naege majimak sunganin geochureom
seupge nal jinachineun geudae gyeotae
ddo dagaga hangeoryeom jocha
chae ttel su eopseuljilado

seoseongige hae nunmuljigae hae..

babocheoreom aeecheoreom
charali geunyaeng oseobeoryeo

jeomjeom daga seolsurok
jaggu geobi najiman
ee sarangeun meomchul suga eopnaboa

meon balchiseo na jamshilado
geudae balabol su isseodo
geuge sarangijo

hoksi ee gidalimi ee geuriumi
daheul ttaemyeon deulil ttaemyeon
charali moleun cheok haejeukyo
geudaeyege galsurok jaggu geobi najiman
ee sarangeun momchul suga eopneyo

<333. I havent found the english translation yet. But im very sure that one of the lines is,

"its like as though youre not my fated girl"

lol. anyhow, grandma entered hospital. oh man, i hope she recovers soon. She was having a fever yesterday when i visited her. omg, hope she'll be fine. pls pls pls. Anyhow, have been planning my timetable till prelims, and thank god, i feel slightly relieved that at least, i have a plan. and thank god that prelims have been moved till the 3rd week. Last chance, last chance, lets do this thing. I CAN DO IT. GO JERMS. im gonna stop being such a stupid boy anymore. yes haha. LETS GET INTO UNI FUPPY PARA PARA BOY(:. YAYYYY! HAHA. anyhow, yeah, i really hope that i'll have the disipline to stick to it, cos everytime timetables only work for a week. oh man. pls pls.):. hahaha. so here goes nothing. JERM, SUCCESS! YAYYY. HAHA. omg, im going mad. but still, oh man, hope to hear from parents soon, worried sick for grandma.

anyhow, sisters are always so annoying. haha. but its okay. sighs. okay lets do this thing.
haha.

omg, gotta stay focused. grah. haha.

jiayou everyone. omg.
-jErM

2009-07-17T07:14:00.000-07:00

weather: cloudy
17th July 2009
music:-

the pimple hurts. like hell. omg, when will the massive zit breakout stop. gah. man it'd better stop. will be applying cream like crazy! Prelims are in less than 8 weeks. i'd better start planning. omg. last chance, last chance, last time! omg. haha. next, got new specs, i cant get use to my look with it. omg, hahaha, looks, mm, weird to me. but its okay, ill get used to it. and got the prelude dvd, not bad, i would say, really not bad, sounds quite all right to me. haha. yes. not bad. haha. oh man, hope things will go fine. As much as im tired, and i really feel like dying and just giving up at times, just cling on, im sure things will go fine. yes it will.

"if you wanna just give up, remember why you even clung on so long in the first place."

yes, jiayou everyone. off i go. morrow, hardcore mugging plan starts.

-jErM

2009-07-08T02:44:00.000-07:00

weather: Cloudy, really really cloudy
8th July 2009
Music: Fantasie- Gabriel Faure
event: Back to school for term 3. D;.

CAUTION: REALLY REALY WORDY AND PICTURY POST COMING UP.AND THE FORMATTING A BIT SCREWED. SO REALLY SORRY AH):. HAHA.

hahaha. so yup, i havent done proper blogging in like, mmm, months. hahaha. so. well, i guess life during that period of time was mainly mugging and studying. or rather syf pracs/prelude pracs. haha. so well here goes to a long long post. enjoy for the flash backs. going in chronological order.

FIRST EVENT: TJ FLUTES 08-09, TJ BAND EVENTS, PRELUDE 29.

wow. haha. im really really laggy person. hahaha. So well, during that period of intense stress due to syf preparations, etc, i have the most awesomest section ever to pei me:

WE ATE:

we played(flute and well, haha, play):

well, vivid scenes on what happened during the syf and syf rehearsals are still stuck solid in my mind.

and well, all the unglamness ever: (haha, why the hell am i doing the same pose for both pictures. HAHA, and mt looks like a ghost in the 2nd picture)

so, syf came, and well, there're times where i got really stressed up and my playing went wrong. but also, there're times when my playing came back to me. alumni pracs, and well, sectionmates who break down at times also. like alot of us all got stressed up due to personal probs, like school and home, and everything, and best of all we survived through that whole period of time. I guess if not for this bunch of great ppl, i wouldve died in my band life.(well, other than other ppl in band). and well, sectionals got cut down alot though. But still, i really love our sectionals, and all of our late night dinners. haha. im gonna miss all that like hell la. haha.

and so syf came, we got silver. and i guess it was kindda upsetting, from the way we put in our hardwork. Read the judges comments and i guess we got picked a lot on intonation. mmm. so no one else to blame. But i guess, one for all all for one. so we all geared up ourselves for prelude 29 thereafter.

Our chautauqua. haha. Too bad didnt play. started duetting with bh alot. which is fun. and mei too(:. and well, got really close to the clarinets. haha. But still, when i remembered linsheng saying that we're playing machu pichu. I remembered clapping happily. hahaha. Also, our extreme makeover. solas anne, and omg, hans andersen suite.(omg, hahaha, bad and well good memories, THAT A FLAT. haha.), following that, enchanted suite, on main street and love so sweet. Well the last pieces for prelude. man. haha. so well, the day started, and i was duetting with bh in the morning. at that point of time, my playing sounded all right. so it was good. haha. took some pictures before setting off, oh ya, i didnt post up all, iknow i have alot alot of shots to post up, but then lazy ah, cos if not the post will really be untolerable alr. hahaa.:

^well, thats the section

^ZI pai shot. hahaha. with don's hands just nice covering C's face.

^ a really nice shot. hahaha. dont know wth im doing

^say AHH!

Rehearsals started: and well, worked only a bit here and there, tuning, last min things, etc, gave the section letters on the bus, and gah, if only i did prepare more things la.haha. so rehearsal started:

and as rehearsals proceed suddenly my tone got worse and worse. till apoint where it became really airy(like last year zomg can). and i started freaking out like a mad man. but i know that must stay calm or else im gonna screw up the entire thing la. haha. many ppl reassured me like h and sh, but still i decided not to touch the instru for a while, had dinner, watched the stage band rehearse, and the ensembles. and finally concert came.

well, machu pichu started off really nicelly. my fav piece of the whole concert. felt chills for the first time. it was really nice. hahaha. EM was okay la. still im just sad that ya, it ended. solas ane haha, was quite all right. and the andersen suite. I remembered the first time doing a solo for jungle fantasy with hsccb the first time. and it was scary. as the 4th movement approached. Heart pounded. scared. but told myself its gonna be all right. and lucky for me, it turned out more than all right. so i cant wait to get my hands on the disc to hear it.haha. but then again, im really really proud and honoured to play with the section like this. even though prelude 28 was a hella of a blast, 29 was great too. xy and cheryl did really really well in all their solos. and well, all my juniors were great that day too. so, im just really really proud and happy for all of them. and well. yup, stageband was good. was good.(though i'd prefer phantom still =p) haha,and the ensembles were quite all right. during the 2nd half, i was kindda relaxed alr la. so just chilled. mainstreet was okay. haha. enchanted was when istarted enjoying myself. and well, love so sweet was just awesome. hahaha. i was moving like a madboy as usual. and i remembered that i shouldnt move so much cos haha. yeah. so photos thereafter:

^just like last year hahahaha. 2208 bandits.

^and 03(:

^section(:

^Mrs chua band ppl

everyone just went mad taupoking ppl, and like just photos of all sorts of groups. hahaha. damn funny and fun. i have a hellot of shots for that one. but hahaha. im really lazy to post that one. okay maybe i shall do that in the next post. hahaha. So yup. band life just ended like that. Im just sad. yup. so well, although 28 was more fantastic, 29 is still great. thanks TJCSB, and more imptly, thanks so much TJCSBFS. you ALL ARE AWESOME. hahaha. esp like xy and C for being there with me for the entire TJCSB journey. haha. couldnt have asked for better sectionmates. hahaha. like really. thanks so much for everything man. and also the juniors. work hard k(:. haha. dont think youall will drop by. but still. hahaha. if you do. yup there's the post(:.

Event 2: zilianing myself with my flute.

HAHAHAHA. cool right. haha. okay its not cool i know. FUP. hahaha(fat ugly pimply). BUT STILL. hahaha. i miss 74067 like mad now. man the next junior who takes it better take good care of it. or im gonna come and haunt that person. hahahaha. and well, took some shots, photoshop it and well, turned out nice(;. but the fan spoiled the thing.and well, the first shot is like, yeah how i always move la. hahahahaha.-.-.

event 3: FLUTE ENSEMBLE DAY

hahahaha. although i wished that i could stay for the flute competition. only went to watch xy's flute ensemble and some quatets. hahaha. still its quite okay. ahha. met kj first in the morning and then went down to the place. hahaha. LOL. took pictures for the ensemble. although the cam sucked that day. hahaha. and well section shots. which are quite nicely taken:

had lunch/dinner after that with them. and well, headed to grandma's house thereafter. and that was the last time really laughed/spent time with them. haha. boy. so yup. haha. anyhow have been touching dion's flute a bit. and since there's no pressure now, can work a bit on tone and stuff. but still. haha. i only do that when i get really stressed up la. so still, focus is still on work. haha. brought back some scores from esplanade though. haha Fantasie by gabriel faure ah. (which is the piece that wj did) is relaly nice ah. well, hope to be able to work on all those pieces some day. haha. and well, dearest TJCSBFS-08-09, haha, section outing soon okay! well, even though soon might mean 1 month or 10 months. But still, soon okay(:! yay. we are awesome.

Event 4: MUM'S BDAY(which is the same day as lifesaving exam)

well, that day was just veg dinner, and dad had to go back to the office this time. well, dad's really sometimes viewed as a romeo to me la. so, every year he'll do something special like bringing mum to some place or doing something crazy. But this year there wasnt anything like that. so am kindda disappointed la. sighs. haha. but still. natasha had NDP reherasal so only left me, s and d at home. so i rushed to tampines mall and bought mum a small cake. haha. we 3 passed her our presents. and i guess still it made mum happy(:. so dear momma, thanks for being like the best mum ever okay!((:.

^haha. mines the wrapped up fan like present. haha. well, dion gave her famous amos cookies, whilst sharol gave her a bag while i gave her a pencil case(;

^and the cake's blocked by the snack like thing. haha.

so yeah lor. haha. sians. this time no celebration by dad, except for the dinner. so, aiya nvm la. hahaha. cannot say much. haha. but still, im jsut glad that we still managed to give mum a mini one though(:. haha. yay cho.(:

Event 5: JCTs

what more can i say?

bio-killer paper

chem-screwed up the essay part.

math-okay la, some qns cant do

econs-die my market failures):

gp-essay, DD;

So still, its kindda screwed. alr its JCTs and still like that. Alr got back bio, adn well, 41.5 percent. So, i dont know. i felt that it was killer paper. some qns well done, some not so. and well the not so beats the so la. so yeah.

chem the structured was going well, all the way till the essay came. and i started freaking out. so i guess my essay its kindda screwed.DDDD;.

Math was the best performance this time. i wonder what ill get. But im sure that i made some careless mistakes here and there. and there're a few questions that i dont know how to do.

Econs only the market failure essay was badly done i felt. mmm. hope it'll be all right.

GP essay, omg, no education im sad la. and compre was well, mmm. im just wondering how ill do.

well, so during the holidays, it was mainly spent studying and studying everyday eating fast food till i get sick. haha. with shawn, joc, sh, and ops. hahaha.(:. and well, it's really great studying with them. but at times really unproductive, but there're times when it's really productive as well. cant wait to study back tgt with them again. so yeah lor.(:. haha. but still. yup. when JCTs ended, we finally had a 4 day break. of which i felt that i deserved to slack it all off, cos im really really tired. so yup. friday was spent movie watching with 2208 ppl. hahaha. as i said it was great.(:. hahaha. ice age is nice. good for those who love cartoons while the other half went to watch transfomers. walked around, and finally went home thereafter.

saturday was:

event 6: Lifesaving exam

hahaha. you guys wanna know the results? yeah. hahaha. thank god, and thank the sky and the floor and the ground and the underground. i passed. my distinction. yay. hahahaha. but then still im just sad for D who didnt pass cos of timing, its supposed to one. just cos got heavier casualty. but anyhow. although lifesaving is see pass/fail, the examiner this time was indeed Ir. yes. hahaha. the pilot guy. haha. still 3 candidates this time, so it was more pressurizing. i got Dion to be my candidate so was damn light. hahaha. so. yes. me, nig and dan. dan didnt make it cos of timing. but me and nig got the exact same results according to him. so, this is the breakdown for our resutls

theory: A

Speed swim: A

Contact tow: A

Resucitation rescue: A

initiative: U

overall: passed.

hahahahha. dont you all feel like laughing. highlights initiative. but still the tester was impressed for all of us. all the way until initative. its just amazing how can just 1 incident can spoil your perfect image. cos apparently 2 casualties were hugged together in the water. so you were suppoesd to take the board, jump down, pu thte board btw them, hug one casualty and kick the other away. haha. i did EVERYTHING. except for taking the board. and that caused him to say that i flunk initiative. but then, nig did the same thing. hahaha. so, its okay i guess. hahaha. but still, rather, thanks so much for him allowing us to pass. speed swim, my timing was 5 mins. but that was cheater timing, cos, hahahahahha. i used dion as casualty. so light. ahhaha. but then if i used heavy, i did pass. during class, was 5 min 50 something i think. so yeah. but then, i think its all thanks to the gods that i can managed to pass. cos, i dont think i'll be able to pass la. cos 2 weeks nv swim. so yup.

and then sunday tutored kiat the whole day and slacked after that.

monday:

event 7: UBIN OUTING WITH 2208(:

haha. what can i say, a day to slack and relax. well, met sh, yt and s first and took a bus down to changi. that day when we first set off, the sky wasnt looking too good alr. but still we all decided to head down to ubin. But what can i say? the 2 times i went to ubin, with fiesta flutes and with 2208, are all so awesome. hahahaha. so, yup, we headed down to ubin just like that: well the boat ride was rocky at first, and woa can, it costs us 2.50 for a ride there as compared to less than 2 at that point of time i think:

^Sihui and Sam(:

^Shawn, Yuan teng, and judith

^Me and Rong Sheng(:

^and andrea and lala. anyhow, i guess the boat was too sea smell, so drea smelt her bag to relieve the sick smell. (haha!)

^then we asked the nice ppl at the back to take a combined shot of all of us. haha.

and finally, we arrived at ubin. haha. all of us were so excited and we cannot wait to get our hands on the bike. so we took a picture first at the enterance:

rented a bike, and we rented our bikes, and cycled our way to chek jawa. whew. we all almost died la i tell you. haha. esp all the up slopes, but the downslopes were all very fun. hahahaha. and the muddy paths and everything: haha. so yup heres a picture when all of us are really tired.

and finally we arrived at chek jawa! hahahah. fun man fun. when we got there, you've got no idea at all how happy we all were; hahahhaha. the nice sea smell and we slacked there for a while:

^lala, sam, ah rong, and shawn(:

^sisi, mama and honey.

Then we started doing retarded things like, trying to make a star with our feet: managed to do it: hahaha.

and the rest stop at chek jawa. haha. shawn didnt manage to shout at his starfish. but still, me and rs managed to convince some of them that we really saw a starfish. HAHA.

Then we came to this jumpy platform thingy of which i think we were not supposed to go into. HAHA. weekday. ah. not to many ppl there. HAHA. so they got obsessed over seeing fishes. hahaha.

and adding onto the shaky platform, we decided to do ajump shot. haha. FUN. alr to the shaky platform. DIE. i feel fat. hahaha. (: RS jumped high!

as we continued our journey: we saw a sea snake. hahaha. try to spot it in the pic if you can(:.haha.

then we came to the observation tower thingy: HAHA.

then we decided to pose more. and finally had space to self time the cam to take a pic. before i could pose, the cam snapped. haha. which explains the extraness/awkwardness in this shot. haha. but nevertheless, the rest were posing nicely(;

^and what can i say, the shot of the day. its realy really nice right(;. i think so too. haha. this aws when we were on our way down the tower. haha. the cam was put onto steps, and well, worried that it would drop. HAHA. then when we returned. we found this really cool place: i realize our class love to hang out by the sea. -.-. HAHA.

cycled back. really enjoyed all the downslopes. yeah i know, lazy pig. haha. anyhow, then we went for lunch. hahaha. not bad! you all should try there if you all ever go there:

after lunch, the initial plan was to start cycling again. but the weather wasnt looking to good, plus, some of us got tired, so we all rested. hahaha. so, waited for long, and the weather still hasnt rained. so we decided to go off. but then, as we cycled a bit, the rained started pouring, so we headed back to the jetty and wait. we enjoyed the wind. hahahaha. really really shiok. haha. and apparently, everyone was having fun still. so, i guess, the weather got worse. we returned our bikes, and quickly take a boat back to spore. hahahaha. well took an emo shot before we left:

credits to sam. hahahha.

headed back to spore, took a long bus ride to marina, went mad over arcade. hahaha. and had dinner again.(so fat). HAHA. so yup. played arcade, sad that we didnt get anything. haha. so yup. the rest headed home while i head to the esplanade to get some scores. headed home and rested hahaha. and woa, like continuous, the next day went jurong east swimming. hahaha.so yeah lor. haha. it was quite fun for ubin((:. and that would really love to go back there again sometime if like yeah when its really stressful or maybe when exams are over! hahahaha(:

Event 8: JURONG EAST SWIMMING

haha. 3rd time there. once with family, once with pw group and soonhui's pw group. hahaha. and now the 3rd time. met at jurong east mrt. haha. and then with the rest headed down to the pool. had kfc first, we all couldnt wait to get into the water. hahaha. damn damn awesome and fun. haha. the slides, the lazy river, haha, the wave pool, jacuzzi. haha. compe pool even. its just a pity that couldnt get underwater cam la. if not could've taken a lot more. hahaha. still, had really fun, being pushed around by the current, choking myself on water with the wave pool, going mad over the slides. hahaha. and LA, your ultimate secret. hahahaha. _____ IS A PIG!. we were like shouting ___ is a pig while sliding down the slides. and once that blank was filled with my name, that i even had to scream that im a pig. -.-. hahahhaa. and there were some ppl who stole our floats! but we managed to get it back. haha. and also, scaring each other on the current pool, pushing everyone around. toturing each other with the waterfalls. hahah. pain eh! when kenna hit. and omg, the wave pool when the rain is there, its like cold water above while warm water below. haha. we went mad with the playground kiddy as well. haha. so yup(:. also, taught yt some strokes, haha, and did crazy stuff la. haha. hahaha. well took some shots before getting out of the water:

^with judith, yt, rs, la haha. at the playground

and finally we took some shots before we left:

haha, the lady did a good job with helping us, cos they loook really nice. oh well. haha. and well, today is back to school. feeling sianned. like, just sian, haha, but amazingly stayed awake for all lessons except for math-.-. haha. still, here comes back school, and here comes back studying.

but even though fun is tiring, i guess that it did help a lil, or maybe a lot into rejuvenating myself into going back to school. but still, hahaha, sianned la. i really hope i can make it. created miracles. so, yes, lets try to do this man.

haha. well, again wordy and boring, but hope you'all are enjoying this post.(:

havent done proper posting for awhile.

omg, 3 hours on this. hahaha. so yup! everyone jiayou okay. and well, jct results. D;. what more can i say);. sighs. nvm. havent got back everything except for bio yet. all i can say is that i've expected a lot worse. so yeah lor for bio. well, chem could be worse. so yup. im not so sure yet. but so, i hope the rest will be better. D;. but still, well, gonna try to get back into the mood of studying.

anyhow, im missing my flute bad. and i really hope that i can buy one after As. well, everything after As.

so everyone jiayou! hope that this post has helped you slacked a bit. hahahah. now get back to studying or doing whatever you were doing, thats if you read till here.(:

well going off man. cya guys round(;

-jErM

p.s. might not be posting in a while again. cos well, it will be studying a lot la. so yeah. haha.(:

and anyhow, faure's fantasy is awesome, and beethoven is really really awesome. haha.

2009-07-03T21:10:00.000-07:00

weather: sunny
4th July 2009
Music: KV314 mozart's flute concerto
event: MUM'S BDAY =D

okay. haha. so lifesaving exam's is in 2 hours time. im feeling quite scared still cos, still got some parts of theory is still not affirmed up, and that, i havent exactly swam in 2 weeks alr. i dont know whether timing still can be maintained. omg. i really hope i can survive this time round. the last rank. omg, i pray pray that i can pass man. heard that its irwin this time round. im not so sure la. but still i really hope that things will go fine.

Anyhow, JCTs are over, and as i promised myself i finally got the dvd for beethoven's virus:

Its only 2 episodes outta 18 and its alr 3 hours. quite interesting. really. haha im gonna watch finish it. still yesterday's class outing was pretty fun, though i still think that the shopaholic one is nicer. lol. hahaha. but still okay la, ystd was tiring but fun. The class is going to ubin on monday for cycling, and that some going for tuesday jurong swimming. But for tuesday im not so sure yet, but im sure going for monday's one! fun! hahaha. okay 2208 still rocks socks. anyhow, when i watched 2 eps this morning (instead of studying for lifesaving) LOL, alr can reflect a bit la.

omg, i just feel that at times during my band life, there're times when i sounded decent, there're times when i sounded like crap. of which, well, i suddenly think that alot of times that i sounded like crap. Ill never ever forget the practices driving towards prelude and syf this year. Alot of pracs i sounded like crap. Overblowing, or rather playing really really really really loudly, articulation, support, omg, what the heck is wrong with my concepts. haha. but still, i'd really hope that i can improve on it. but first, gotta get pass this lifesaving exam first and As and prelims. the 3 most impt things for this year left. and hopefully get into SAF band next year to continue honing skills. this period staying away from flute, at least, Dion did manage to bring back her flute. haha. and since theres no pressure, at times i work on basic techniques, tone, etc still. haha. well. oh well. crap crap music. seriously. hahaha. wonder what will happen if i'd had gotten some really fierce conductor. I really think linsheng is too nice to me alr. the fierce conductor would perhaps ask me to say that i play like a pile of dog poo, or rather chase me out of the room. omg. i'd really wonder. but for now, lets go for lifesaving first.

anyhow stick around okay, promise to update and ill do it. MY LAGGED OUT PRELUDE POST. ZOMG CAN. hahahahhaha. and today and alot of things to say also. so stick around, well if you still are. hahaha. so dead la this place.

wish me luck. oh boy! here goes!

-jErM

p.s. UBIN here we come man! and also, pass pass pass! omg.

2009-06-20T11:13:00.000-07:00

weather: sunny
20th June 2009
Music: no way out- Phil collins, brother bear

man, i love the current song right now. just love it.

"everywhere i turn, i hurt someone.
But theres nothing i can say to change the things ive done
I do anything within my power
i gave everything ive got
but the path i seek is hidden from me now..."

Wow. love the starting lines alr. listen to it k. like woamygod, phil collins is love.

anyhow, its 2.14 am right now, swimming and tuition later on. omg. im suddenly feeling freaking scared and stressed right now, but still i managed to calm myself down right now la. so yup. anyhow, i realized that we only have 2 months to study for prelims after jcts. like wth right. omg. I cant even study finish now for jcts. and its not like sa though im slacking alr. Omg, i need to relax, stay calm, i know i can do this. omg. my senior once said this to me.

"the difference btw an RI student and a HSC student, is that RI students take 10 steps to get there, but hsc students take 100 steps to get there. But so long as youre willing to take the 100 steps, still get there in the end what."

she's right. still, What if i cant make it in time. Im feeling so scared right now. that ive got this really sick feeling inside right now. But still, im staying calm. Yes, relax, take everything relaxingly. yup. maybe should try to go to bed now. but my ipod is charging so slowly)):. gah. ahh welllll. omg, good luck man everyone. 8 more days to JCTs. sighs. jiayou.

-jErM

2009-06-11T06:42:00.000-07:00

weather: HOT HOT HOT.
11th June 2009
Music: resplendent glory- rossano galante
event: 17 MORE DAYS TO JCTS! (panicks) , still have yet to update on prelude, and class stuff.

its the 11th of june, 17 more days to JCT. and i feel duper unprepared still. but still, im studying hard here. yup. really hope that can study in time mans. so far the record, is that ive only spent 2 whole entire days slacking. Out of the 11 so far. bad good? yes. i think its bad. Anyhow, have been studying tgt with sihui, shawn and jocelyn so far in the hols. most sessions are productive except for the one ytd. where i was doing Diversity and evolution. such a duper hard chapter of bio. which i feel sucks. anyhow, i was on my mp3 player the other day. and i realize that every single band song that i listen to while doing work, somehow, memories from my band life, be it tj band, or hsc band will just flow back. Say when i was listening to airs for wind orchestra, it just brings me back to when i was finally officially given the chance to play first flute, and the song started out with a flute and glockenspiel solo. with tremoring and encouragement from mr and mrs chua to come out. When i was listening to dancing in the wind, i rmb the times when i felt that ive let my seniors down and didnt feel like talking to them, cos i felt that ive let them down. when i was listening to jupiter, brings back the fiesta memories, on how much of a difficult time to tongueing the running passages at that time. When i was listening to zodiac(hsc's syf recording), i remembered the moments when i come out of the hall, feeling so proud of myself and the band, when i managed to hit the high notes for the picc. cos man, the day before syf, the high notes still didnt come out. hang on ah, disclaimer, haha, i was concentrating on my work when i was thinking bout all this ah. and then it came to resplendent glory.

Just listening to this piece, somehow, brings back the fiesta memories. I still can rmb the vivid scenes playing on tj's audi that day when playing this piece. still can rmb that this was the very first score that kj handed to me out of all to learn for fiesta. Still, from the composer himself, this piece is,

Written in a "romantic/heroic" style, this impressive overture features sweeping and lush melodies along with brilliant brass fanfares and woodwind flourishes. Resplendent Glory is a dynamic concert-opener.

Still, haha, this is one of my most favourite band pieces and even till im old, i will never ever forget how this piece sounds. Sounds so impressive, and just i dont know how to say, just how the brasses and winds come together in this piece, it just somewhat sounds like some movie soundtrack, sounds like something to go like WOW. its just like, when the piece starts you feel this gust of wind(from the winds) coming, following by the grand amazing opening with the trumpets, and like as the piece goes on, its like just narrating story, or somehow feelings of success and grandness and i dont know. its just something like, omg, wow. this is damn downright amazing.

yes. hahahahahhaha. i think this piece just reflects on successful moments, just reflects the whole feeling, like when the piece is running, i just somewhat feel so like, wow. its like theres this brave/motivational story to tell. I dont know how to say. but still, i love this piece.

Being only able to perform this once, and at that point of time, my flute skills are just starting to pick up from a long time of not touching it, somehow, i kindda hope that i can replay this again. well, i dont know. the future. well, scary. oh man, i really really hope that someday, i can get to play with this piece again. omg, its one of the nicest pieces ive ever known. omgggg. hahahaha. other than pieces like EM, machu pichu, danza, 3rd symphony, etc. haha. I really hope that can get into SAF band in the future. hahaha. cos, yes, ive decided that i wanna improve more on it. yes. hahaha.

but for now *pulls myself back to reality* , ive gotta replan my schedule for the 17 days left. Still havent started on econs and chem yet. scary. but still, at least, bio and math theres like 1/4 way through alr i hope. =/. Theres lifesaving next week. my very last rank to obtain. hope i can do it. haha. with 17 days left, im gonna create a miracle. yes i am. hahaha. woots. hopefully, my plans for now will be, study hard and do well for A levels, prelims and JCTS, and thereafter, enter army, BMT, and hopefully, get into SAF Band, sometimes just hearing pieces again and again, just gets my mood back to practicing flute harder, wanting to be zaier and zaier till i can be like xy or kj, or all those countless amazing flautists out there. and then see whether i can make into unis or not.

but for now, enjoy the vid. the band sounds great from there.

so ppl, jiayou for the next 17 days. oh man. hope i can pull through. yes i can. JIAYOU.

omg, and jason, you just tempted me to watch beethoven's virus! Im gonna promise myself this after JCTS. hahahahahha!. =DD.

-jErM

2009-06-07T08:01:00.000-07:00

weather: sunny, rained a bit

7th June 2009

Music: -

WOAAAAAAAAAAAA. HAHAHA. FINALLY. AFTER A KAZILLION YEARS, im back. haha. as much as i want to blog right now, im feeling uber tired from spending an entire day on this skin. HAHAHA. omg, okay, hang on ah, breathes deep*

1) I know its damn zilian, but this is the only once X(

2) ITS DAMN ACT COOL BUAY COOL. HAHA. I KNOW. X)

3) THE FAN SPOILS THE ENTIRE EFFECT. BUT STILL THE PIC IS COOL. yes i know.

4) THIS IS DAMN BUAYHIAOBAI AND SO UNLIKE ME. HAHA. YES.

5) HAHA. REALLY. THE LIST GOES ON.

but nevertheless, im giving myself a pat on the back. after spending an entire week(which is damn unproductive cos i havent started on the major topics yet while ppl have already finished 70% of physics.) HAHA, to do this. okay la. tmr gonna mug hard. sighs. ir eally hope i can pull through this holiday.

lifesaving, studies. im tired.

ah well. anyhow, heres the original picture. be shocked k. haha. cos boy oh boy, this skin is one of the hardest, most effort spent other than the section blogskin and jermboi to do. omg. 1 whole day la. wtf right! hahaha.

LOOKS DAMN DIFFERENT RIGHT. YAY. HAHA. WEE. anyhow, yes. I know ive got loads of updating to do. especially prelude post waiting for me, and class stuff. X). but, yes. im going to have to concentrate on JCTS for now. starting tmr, the intensity and ferocity will get worse. so, yes. JIAYOU EVERYONE. really hope i can pull through.

and i love the olympic motto, faster, higher, stronger. I think its really cool.

okay, yes i know alr. heard it. damn bhb and corny. but nvm la. hahahaha. for this once only. yes. its good for a change.

-jErM

2009-05-24T07:55:00.000-07:00

weather: sunny
24th May 2009
Music: -

haha. so prelude 29's over. and that marks another end of the chapter of my life. For now all i can say that it started on a grand note, and ended off with a high note. haha. I'll blog about it soon, but, yeah, the camera doesnt seem to wanna connect to the com. and ive wasted the whole day slacking away alr when i shouldve spent it catching up on my work. Im feeling so overwhelmed right now from the work facing me. Ive not been faithfully doing my tutorials recently and even wasted today away. and im feeling so lost about all the lectures now. esp chem. omg. how how. Oh no. ive gotta try my best. so, whilst trying to catch up on tutorials/lectures and waiting for the camera plug to come back from dad's office. till then everyone(:. haha.

-jErM

2009-05-17T06:45:00.000-07:00

weather: sunny
17th May 2009
Music: -

Ive never, in my whole entire life, felt this tired before. Inside out, i feel fried. and the flu now aint making things better at all. Im starting to lag out on almost all tutorials. shit, that reminds me of the diversity tutorial that has yet to be done by tuesday. and im halfway reading through the lecture notes for chem eqm and the tutorial will be like going through tmr. and econs right now, i dont know what the heck is going on, and well, the GP essays and practices that im supposed to do for the last 3 weeks? hur. not done at all. well, band life is ending in 6 more days. Looking forth to it, but all at the same time not looking forth to it. Looking forth, cos i can finally get some time to breathe, to sleep and to catch up on my work. shit 3 weeks to study for JCT, and so heavy. ive got no idea how im going to do it. but i must. Chem SPA this tuesday, so tmr, i'll leave the first thing when band ends again):. sighs. And like, i hope i can survive. omg, i need reassurance, energy and determination right now. with no distractions at all):. I really hope i can catch up with my work, before JCTs. if not, im fried pork meat la.):. and well, not looking forth cos, that means, wont be seeing linsheng anymore for the rest of the year, no sectionmates to go crazy with, no band mates to go mad with. and yeah, i'll miss them. sighs. but prelude is coming, and my andersen solo is still screwed. its so high, and shit la. am making so many mistakes. Attacking the note, ending together, support, airy high notes, flat high notes. and guess what. linsheng/section can hear it all.):. I really really pray that i'll get the andersen solo part nicely done for prelude. Thats the only one that i have/deciding to take up. The toughest one in fact. Lots of sustaining to do. sighs. life sucks. playing also like that, academics also like that, health also like that. and well, the relationship/friendship side, i guess its okay now la. but still, im feeling really tired from some of the things that are happening from that side.

This week. chem spa, NAPFA(which im going to fail, hop ewill pass the august retest though), and prelude. Please, let this week be a safe one. I pray pray that i'll survive in all classes and lectures, and i pray that 74067 wont throw tantrums with me morrow. omg, plspls. I'll need all these desperately. sighs. This is the hardest phase of life, just yet. when the whole world seems to be collapsing/falling apart. Really need support, and loads of reassurance and zest and energy to go on. Pls. let this week be a good one. Just this week for now. oh man.

namodacidabeiqianshouqianyanguansiyingpusa, let this week be a fine one. and baoyou wo. oh man.):

and recently my eyelids for both have been twitching like hell. oh boy.

well. updating to do one day k. long post coming up again. yup.

going off.

-jErM

you never did and you never will.and its getting really tiring and sickening. Avoidance. Sighs. Somehow. Im feeling so confused over every single thing right now.):

2009-05-10T10:54:00.000-07:00

Weather: sunny
11th May 2009
Music: -

Its like 1.55am in the morning, apparently suffering from throat infection and flu, so apparently im feeling groggy and might start talking rubbish. so, if anything is detected in this post that is wrong, pls leave a note in my tag board k. Time lag in my post but,

Silver.

Everything that we've worked so hard for, everything that we've done. Its there. We gave our best shot, the scene of after playing, when everyone came out, majority was smiling, majority felt that we've done our best. Went to the toilet with matthew, and saw linsheng, and apparently, linsheng felt that we did our normal standard, and it was quite exciting. And i was hoping for at least a gold, or even more. Everyone was excited, everyone was so scared, waiting under baited breath. And when the results were released, I guess, it gave the hall a shock. I saw the saxophonists crying, then i saw xy and c crying, then, bh, m, and eventually to my row, mainly all the girls were crying. and the guys, well, practically everyone was sianned. Somewhat, on the way back to the bus. Theres only 1 word that kept on repeating in my mind. that is,

"why"

millions of thoughts were gushing through my mind, like what the heck went wrong. From where i was sitting on stage, The set piece sounded as usual all right, our section did well i guess. And c! you're in tune! from the recording it is in tune(:. so, I dont know. our section's rich tone, intonation and technique was shown i guess. Other sections did well too, the choice piece. was, woa, i kindda felt it was more than all right, from the crytal singing tones given from the sax quatet, to the rich and colourful tones that the 1st oboe and 1st flute was giving, to the showcasing of the double tongueing from the band at 254, to the showcasing of the togetherness of the runs of the winds at 278, to the pitching of impossible notes at 300 by the trombones and horns, to the tuned bottles with the wonderful techniques of the marimba and xylophone, then showcasing almost all the sections at the fugue part, before finishing off with a grand finale. Personally when i came out, i was smiling. I thought things were more than all right, and there wont be a repeat of the scenes that happened in 07 syf with hsc. So, i dont know, when the results were announced. I was just duper tired/sianned. First i was thinking of the pw results, then now. So, i dont know. Right now, its still the same why why why. You give your best, you know that you gave your best. but the results just dont come.):. Luck? perhaps i think i need it more than ever this year. Its lacking. But i pray that it'll come back to me. hahaha. maybe shall start keeping clover leaves and opals by my side from now on.(:.

Anyhow, I listened to the recordings again and again and again. Spotted a lot of minor mistakes along the way. But, im not so sure on whether we were pin pointed on all that. Tone wise, the band was there. Innotonation wise, the band was there. Technique wise, the band was there. Feelings/expression wise, the band was there. So, what exactly when wrong? So right now, Im just gonna wait. Wait for the judges comments to return before saying anything. At least

I wanna know a justifiable reason first on why the results before saying anymore things.

And of course, it is indeed heartening/sweet to see all the comments on bandfusion. Everyone there seems to have liked the performance put up during SYF by our band. and well, like 95% of the people there are like fighting for us.

-TJC was really very good. From the opening of extreme till very last bit. they did very well for a Junior College band with consideration of the difficulty of their choice piece, "extreme makeover". Really they did very well. All the running and others. Really good.Personally I am not sure how come TJC will get such results (a silver?) but to me they worth AT LEAST A GOLD, although I expected a better outcome (honours)

-PS: to those who have not heard Extreme makeover before and went for SYF today, the back part for Extreme is difficult and messy by itself (it is written that way), with all the cannon or fugue (different instruments come in at different timing while the previous instrument that came in still playing the whole melodic phrase). I said this caused I heard people saying they sound messy with different instruments come in late and all over the place at that fugue part. To all TPJC and TJC band members, you all have done your very best. It doesn't matter how the 6 judges think, you all have done a good job and of course, to alot of band conductors and audience, you all do deserve better award.

-No2 was TJC.Their tutti sound was really wow! thick, great harmony and rich tone.If there is a difficulity of music in judging criteria , TJC scored a point.I like the choice of music, I don't think the conductor choose this music if he is the type just care the result of the SYF.He wanted to play music to express something, that is why he had chosen this music.bravo!

-My ranking of the schools today -1) TJC2) RJC3) ACJC4) CJC5) TPJC6) NJC7) MJC.... the restI felt TJC, ACJC, and TPJC deserved better results too. TJ's extreme makeover was really exciting and kept me on the edge of my seat throughout the entire performance

so, yeah lor, till now, even lin sheng is baffled by how the hell we got silver. And no matter how much everyone loves our music, it wont change the award no longer. its there, forever. and like, i guess we cant totally blame the judges also la. cos, i guess, they're there for an obvious reason, to judge. Perhaps we were lacking in something. But still, i dont know what. I wanna wait for the comments before saying anything.

But then again, If you guys want the recordings can ask from me online, or rather you can hear it for yourself--> http://www.mediafire.com/?tmmm54dtzyt.

So, hear it, and if possible give the comments k. But also, thank you so much linsheng for always being there for the band. Its like the best of the best, and i've never have had a better band instructor other than mr and mrs chua. Thanks, and the alumni for always coming down. and kj, A for the smses and support. The rest of the alumni of the 07-08 batch, T, Ws, etc for all the help. wang laoshi! for all the help in the seciton sound. and everyone else of TJCSB. TJCSB ROCKS. and TJCSBFS ROCKS too. omg, yes, nvm. prelude. the last notes. yes. things will rock.

well, im logging off man, feeling damn tired. Boy its been long since i slept so late.

and lucky for me, tmr's a school hol.

-jErM

I guess, fate has given me its answer.

2009-05-05T08:02:00.000-07:00

weather: SUNNY/RAINY
5th May 2009
music: EXTREMEMAKEOVERTURE NO 2!- TJCSB 08-09 BATCH, 09-10 BATCH

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
ITS TMR TMR TMR TMR! SYF. AARRGHHHH! IM FEELING DAMN SCARED/NERVOUS/EXCITED ALL AT THE SAME TIME, BUT MAINLY DOMINATED BY SCARED AND NERVOUS. I REALLY PRAY PRAY PRAY HARD THAT IT WILL BE

GWH! OMG,LIKE RONG YU JING PAI AS EVERYONE PUTS IT.

OMG OMG OMG, EXTREMEMAKEOVERTURE NO 2! WE CAN DO THIS. OMG OMG OMG, SCARED SCARED SCARED. BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, EVERYONE WILL BE AWESOME TMR, EVERYONE WILL LOOK AT LINSHENG, WE'RE ALL GONNA SMILE. GIVE EVERYONE GOOSEBUMPS AND LIKE, I DONT KNOW! JUST A BIG FAT SMILE.
IM REALLY PRAYING VERY VERY HARD. EVERYONE WORKED HARD LIKE CRAZY FOR THIS. PLS PLS PLS PLS. MAY THINGS TURN OUT FINE. I'VE BEEN GETTING ADRENALINE CRINGES AND LIKE, I DONT KNOW, JUST FEELING REALLY SCARED SINCE EVENING ALR. AARGH. PLS, MAY THINGS BE FINE!

WELL, GOING OFF TO REST. 11.07PM. ALR. LETS DO IT! WE CAN DO THIS.

AND I PROMISE, THAT THAT SUSTAINED F AT 49-50, I PROMISE I WILL SUSTAIN IT WITHOUT GOING FLAT, WITH A FULL ROUND TONE. AND I PROMISE TO GIVE LINSHENG THE CONFIDENCE TO DO WELL.. OMG, IM FEELING DAMN ANGRY AND PARANOID AND SCARED AND INSERCURE ABOUT EVERYTHING NOW, BUT ITS OKAY. HOPE SLEEP WILL CURE IT.

OMG, TJCSB IS <3!>

2009-05-03T08:24:00.000-07:00

Weather: Sunny
3rd May 2009
Music: -nil-

Hey ppl. haha. im deciding to share this video uh. Its been a year since ive watched finished the first season of nodame cantabile.(strongly recommended to watch if you're in band/orch or whatsoever) haha. its damn damn uber nice, and im still loving it till now. This video, whenever i watch it, i ALWAYS, without fail get goosebumps.(haha did you all get by any chance?) So far, its the only video that can lemme get goosebumps la. haha. Watch it k! omg, i really hope that we can play something like this for syf. MAE OURSELVES AND LINSHENG PROUD(:. HEE. hahaha. Like actually can sense the shiokness, sense the excitement, sense the emotion, sense like, everything that you're supposed to be sense. You guys watch the video k! especially especially the parts in the first movement, when the whole orchestra decides to be cheeky and insert the whole moving element in. Like how the music soars and crescendos, you see the violins zooming all the way up together with their instruments( I know its damn damn damn exaggerated), hahaha, but still, its damn nice right. Everytime i see that, I get a tinge of cringe excitement inside my tummy. and then you see the trumpets at the back waving left and right( HAHAH, THIS ONE IS DAMN EXAGGERATED ALSO), but still, and how the double basses and cellos turn their instrus 360 around during some parts. The clarinet was like almost playing parallel to the ground at some parts also alr. and haha, the best for last, the flute girl was like WOO! HAHAHA. like 125 degrees off the ground near the end of the video. And also, the part when the whole orch crecendos, she does the upper and upper and upper thing also. haha.(If you would've realized, at 536 i think the part where flute have to do double notes, whenever the notes rises, i rise as well. (but of course ill minimize it like crazy during syf itself.) Im worried that my exaggerated movements will cost the band performance marks uh.)):. I pray that that wont happen. and im gonna tap my toes instead of my feet if theres a need to. But still, just like S orchestra, I really hope that I can feel goosebumps during SYF itself. 254! omg, with the run of the winds, with the power of the notes from the bass trombone/trombones, with the holy horn notes and the supporting bass. OMG, i pray pray that the shiok shiok feeling will come, and i pray that the notes will all be neat and nobody's rushing, and best of all, i really hope all of us and linsheng will enjoy ourselves. haha, just like how s orchestra enjoys themselve.(if you've have watched the anime series, you would understand how horrible s orchestra actually is, from a bunch of underachievers, under the direction of chiaki, and he helped the whole orch to turn to some god like sound). Im not saying that we're all underachievers, But still, all of us, no matter how bad, or how good we are have improved a bunch under the baton of linsheng aint it. I guess. hahaa. oh man, really hope we can play something like what they've played. (HAHA, of course not follow the movements la, too exaggerated, even though mine is quite mm alr. Kenna commented by the NTU senior the other time. -.-. embarassing. HAHA.) BUT STILL, i promise and promise i will take note all my note entries and i promise to the best of my ability, i wont move too much,(dont wanna affect the presentation marks =/) and i also promise that will take note of all the crescendos and everything. OH MANNN. hahahaha.

Practiced flute like crazy for close to almost 3 hours today. And forsaked a lot of time for work. Oh man. sucks. econs test on tuesday and ive studied nothing, and chem mock spa also. But you know what, its okay(:. hahaha. Just till wednesday. Ive made enough regrets in my life, and you know what, syf 09 together with the rest of TJCSB wont be one of them. I think i seasoned my flute abit more today. So i hope it'll be fine morrow(:. yeah i think it will be. gonna borrow powder paper from bh again. =x. omg, pls pls keypads, dont fail me now. *fingers crossed* 3 more days. omg, pls let things be fine.

going off to bed~

-jErM

omg, dont touch other ppls instrus, especially when the competition season is near. I know that you're more senior and have the right too uh. But it somehow scared the hell out of me that something might happen to my flute. Alr the sticky keypads and the weird cant get the tone out sometimes is making me worry alr. Im glad that nth happened. But im really really sorry k. omg,)):.

2009-05-02T07:21:00.000-07:00

im uber worried now. Not gonna worry for academics for a while. But. Die. Suddenly it just seems so hard to play like how i play a few months ago. When i wasnt overblowing. When my flutes sticky pads are not there. When my flute in the past seem so much easier to play. Oh my god. Syf is in 3 days. Hope i can do this. Worried- and guess what. Theres econs and chem mock spa and bio actual spa next week. Oh man. A crucial week next week. Please let things be fine.. Sighs. -jErM

2009-05-01T09:45:00.000-07:00

Weather: sunny
2nd May 2009
Music: Fei jiu Fei(everyday)-HSM 2 sound tracks.

Okay, its alr 12.46am and theres band in a few hours time. Went out with flutes, dbl reeds and saxes today at suntec, haha, good chiller session i guess. wolverine, graphics and music damn nice. anyhow, feeling really sleepy right now, but, many things happened from the last time i posted.(woa. my blog is dead) haha. but really really busy to do anything, not even posting on blog. So, yeah, syf is next wednesday and im feeling nervous and excited for it all at the same time. but still, the pracs lately have been intensive like crazy. But still, im enjoying it most of the time, i guess. haha. oh and Tommy's return to the band was whoo! hahaha. its like, woa, damn shiok to be under his baton once again, although its only for one prac. and so are all the other alumnis. cool, some sarcastic, some, i dont know. But still, all thanks to their efforts, i guess the band did improve. and of course, the main cause is lin sheng! haha. yay. OMG, PLS LET IT BE A GWH. PLS PLS PLS. worked so hard for it):. oh man, i pray everything will go fine next wed. Anyhow, 2208 you guys are still an awesome bunch of people. thanks so much for the concern for me, during that unlucky day which got caught by T -.-. hahaha. and of course, yeah. Gotta strive for it. GWH GWH GWH! omg, pls pls pls. hahaha. anyhow, yeah, been hanging out with the section for more than 12 hours a day. I think, minds tired cant think. haha. And still, omg, band life is ending. D;. for just a moment, despite all the groaning from the tiredness, im gonna miss this once this period is over. SO i guess, i'll learn to treasure the last few days before syf. And i hope, no it will be. SYF will be awesome.

SHAWN! GOOD LUCK FOR CHOIR MAN! YOU GUYS CAN DO IT! HAHA.

YUANTENG! JIAYOU FOR CO, DO THE SCHOOL PROUD.

YAY..

well, going off. man, i pray i'll survive morrow(:.

-jErM

p.s. Vans, j, hahaha, it was fun talking on the phone the other night. hahaha. ahh well, going off.

2009-04-11T06:34:00.000-07:00

Weather: sunny, rained, sunny
11th April 2009
Music: GR selections

3rd day since PW results has been released. Just somehow, i guess today i finally thought myself through. Yes, i have to zhen zuo qi lai. I cant be like this. Whats done is done, i cant do anything anymore, so hence i have to try to stop grieving. After going through the help of mr ho and lili, Mama, Jollyn's blog, my dearest TJCSBFS 09, andrea, sam, sihui, dan, hong lii, i guess things are starting to get a lil better.

Its like, Whats yours will be yours, whats not will never be. I guess, B, then B. actually now come to think of it, I shouldnt be feeling so angry/sad. Yeah i know i ought to be, and ive already crossed this stage. But then, It just suddenly came to my mind that actually, I did put 200% of my everything into that project. Hence, there shouldnt be any regrets/anger or whatsoever not, cos i've already did my best. Actually more than best. From jollyn's blog, yeah, Perhaps i focused a hell lot on group work, and i did not take care of my individual components as well. Not talking about the PI, not talking bout the EoM, not talking tbout the I and R. Talking bout the OP. I did my best with the slides, I did my best with the talking. and well, i guess it was the q and a that i screwed up? im not so sure. Yeah, perhaps it is indeed the Q and A. which caused me my B. As lili said, i shouldnt bother checking any of my grades or whatsoever, but just accept this fact. I already gave my 200%, and well, Q and A has never ever been my strong point or whatsoever. I guess, its also partially due to luck eh. Maybe yeah, the examiners see my face buay song or whatsoever. Perhaps, B. i know that i ought to deserve that A, but yeah, Whats never mine will never be mine, so, B it is. I knew that i gave my 200% into that project, and i learnt a hell lot of things from this project. My source of inspiration to head to the FOS(life sciences) for uni, as dan puts it, sometimes, merely hardwork is not enough. Yeah, i care a lot for my members too. But i'd rather do that, then to selfishly want my PI/EOM or whatever not to be the best, but causing the whole downfall of the group. Im not that sort. and yes, I gave my best. So again, im questioning myself, why should I be so angry that the world is unfair and whatsoever not. The thing is that i already gave my best shot, and since gods and everyone else think that i deserve this B. Then i deserve this B. Although i got angry at them for like a few days, thinking on how unfair they are to me. But perhaps, they want me to learn something from this experience of pw, getting back results. falling, i guess they want me to grow stronger. Although, its a really painful/heart wrenching/never ever gonna go through pw ever again in my life. But hey, ive learnt a hell lot of things from this. and as my mum puts it, should PW be ever asked upon the interview, sometimes, they look beyond the grades and ask you bout the project. and hey, guess what, i know the project from head to toe. I guess the Q and A i screwed up pretty bad during the OP, so i guess thats what i will learn to work on. Staying calm in times of stress. Which is still what ive ought to learn.

So, since this is the case, B it shall be. as van says, ba bei shang, huan chen li liang.

Im still feeling sad though, but already am a hell lot better as compared to 2-3 days ago.

Thanks to everyone that've given me support all the way.

and Thian yong, haha, thanks for the tag yo. theres nothing to make up for, cos i knew that i gave my best. No regrets. Like, no regret that i didnt do this, no regret taht i didnt do that. Ive got no regrets for this project. I gave my 200%, got a pretty darn good WR, gave attractive slides to the examiners, its just the Q and A i guess. Theres nothing more i can do. I'll still be sad, and i know i shouldnt be angry at all those who got an A. so congrats to all of you yo. I'm already on my way to pick myself up. Yes. i must.

-jErM

2009-04-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

Weather: Sunny, rained(got drenched, soaking wet), sunny
10th April 2009
Music: -

Disappointment comes, when, you dont hit what you expect.

I dont know who made that saying, but yeah, it's just being heard ever since I was young. Surprisingly i finally got the true taste/meaning of that saying, yesterday.

As you all know, yesterday was the release of our pw results. Anxiety, nervousness, feeling afraid/scared. But when you hear the results, you hear how you performed, thats when either extreme excitement/stoning/major disappointment occurs. Even now, the way how Mr Goh announced our results still give me cringes in my stomach, Im feeling fucking angry/sad.

"Jermain, you got a..."

Jerm: "wait wait, wait for whole group first."

"Jermain, you got a B."
"Lihui, you got a A"
"Khehyang, you got an A"
"May, you got an A"
"Shing Jiuan, you got a B"

i took the papers whereby it contains all of ours comments on OP/WR. walked out of the hall, and like going out to the staircase area and reading out all our individual comments. I was feeling so, lost, its like as though the feeling is starting to set in at that time. My stomach cringed and my heart wrenched. I felt deeply uncomfortable, i felt, sad. Just really sad. If you were me last year, going through the whole hell shit work, putting in like 200% of my efforts, sweat, saliva, typing and whatnots. Contacting debby, making sure the group's all right. You'll get why the heck i feel like this. Thereafter, headed down to under lt1. When i called mum, and told her my results. Broke down. My heart wrenched. It's just, so painful. I dont know how to describe this feeling.

Its like, as though, youve put your sweat and blood into that fucking project. bearing all the fucking irritating attitudes of certain people, having to bear the self centredness of certain people, having to like drive the group into the correct direction, having to do all this, plus band and the heavy workload. And what happens? the results dont show.

HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES, HAS THIS HAPPPENED TO ME IN TJ. ITS COUNTLESS. I REALLY FREAKISHLY FEEL LIKE CRYING. I FEEL LIKE IM A LOSER, MORON, IDIOT. I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT THE HECK WENT WRONG.

after some of my classmates tried to calm me down at the marquee area, our group saw mr kao walking past the walkway from lt1 to the canteen. Our group thanked mr kao. Thereafter, he looked at lihui, then he gazed at me. At that point, i cried a second time, I just didnt know how to react. I just felt so, so, so, angry, so unjust, so unfair. I know that blogging out everything will not change my grade to an A. it wont. it will never occur. but, i dont know how else to feel alr. Mr kao was kindda like, i dont know, just i felt that he felt in a difficult position. He asked me to look forth, look forth and like yeah. He said, What might've attributed to the B grade, is perhaps due to the OP. i really dont know what the heck have gone wrong.

Got home ytd, was really quiet, didnt know what else to do. Showered, had dinner (again a second time), talked on msn a while, and tucked myself into bed. When i hugged my bolster, and tucked up my blanket. That was when i really cried like hell. It just felt so angry/painful/sad. It's been long since i ever cried like this. Yeah in TJ i fell like almost a kazillion times. But this time, it just feels like Ive fallen really bad. Its not just a bruise or just a minor cut. It felt like as though ive shattered all the bones in my leg, and like my whole leg was burning, it was like as though im never ever gonna get a 2nd chance/attempt anymore. Its just a very painful/sad/really painful feeling. Nobody knew that i cried like hell on my bed tucked up in my blanket. Was wailing. The last time i did that, was when grandad passed on. I really dont know what the hell went wrong. Like B. im just feeling so unjust/unfair. If really, you've seen how much ive done/ efforts ive put into that project. You'll know how it feels.

mum today told me that, its the process that matters, its the things that youve learnt that matters. Grade's impt, but that matters more. I know that its impossible to ask you not to be sad, after seeing all the efforts being put in, but at least you enjoyed the process right.

B. I think that its a really high B. close enough to get an A. but not close enough. Wasted the whole good friday away. My whole desk is in a mess, and well, theres a hell lot of homework to do. I guess perhaps tonight, im still gonna cry when i go to sleep. cos, it really hurts.

-jErM

p.s. You know what, even though you got an A. ask yourself how much effort have you actually put into this project. Yeah, its a lot. But just compare it to me, and like, yeah ask yourself. After the results was released, yeah you were damn happy that you got an A. but for once, can you not be so self centred? its like as though you're implying that its not your fault for getting that A? But i dont know. If you were in my shoes now, perhaps you'll understand how i feel. But you know what? I guess you'll never understand how it feels. Sucker.

But you know what? No matter angry i am at myself/ all those whom i feel that dont deserve that grade, Its pointless. cos, the grade is forever gonna accompany me, for the rest of my life.
I dont know how long i'll take to recover from this hard fall. But I know i have to pick myself up somehow. But, for now, i just have to try my best. Its gonna be really hard. I dont know how. But i know i have to. But when i got back my results, I feel that i desperately need to talk someone that i wanted to talk to. But ive got no idea who to talk to. i dont know which teacher to approach/whatsoever. Im just feeling the heck lost. Sighs, B. I guess no matter how much comforting is given, it'll be pointless. Yeah might feel better for that while, but then, the feeling will come back again.

2009-04-04T23:43:00.000-07:00

Weather: cloudy
5th April 2009
Music: -

Planning to make a new blogskin. haha. The picture shown above is the main picture. nice nots? comments. haha. But apparently, worked for 4 WHOLE HOURS. trying to get a nice background/html workouts. but apparently its failing. haha. So yeah, shall leave it as this first. tell me how it is k.(:> cya guys soon. anyhow, hsc band ppl, dont worry bout the silver medal. Just know that you guys have played your best. am proud of you all k.(: off i go.

-jErM

2009-03-28T02:41:00.000-07:00

Weather: Sunny, cloudy(:

28th March 2009

Music: its over-jesse mcartney, Why wait- the cheetah girls 2, extreme makeover-Johan de meij, machu pichu-Satoshi yagisawa

Event: Ah xiang jiejie's bday! Daniel's bday!

HAHA. yeahh.today was hai carnival, and am glad that things went on fine. haha. glad to see everyone there again. ahha. WILL BE WAITING FOR PICTURES! haha. today's pictures are quite well taken! haha. Headed down to nai's house just now to celebrate ah xiang's jie's bday, but she wasnt there at first. so only managed to pass her the presents. but i bet she liked it(:. haha. haha. Bought her a pretty dangly earings and necklace with the help of SH, MY and CH. hahaha. and yeah everyone's(family) sharing. haha.(:. hee, so happy(:.

haha. anyhow, as promised, a pictury wordy post right after MCTs. (btw, MCTs was quite hellish ah, especially math. ):) Results are gonna be out the week or the week after next. So i hope things will go fine./:. anyhow. Will blog things in the chronological order from where i've left of the last time. hahaa. Today's post includes: ORINETATION UNDEFINED: IGNITE THE INFINITE: the adventures with OG 14 hahaha!, Class events/things that happened, Band things, as well as the latest outing with Meiyee, sihui and chiaw hong! haha. anyhow, before i start, im gonna post up a really great picture to kick start the post. Oh and btw, hahaha, again, unless you really have nothing to do, then go ahead and read! hahaha. but there's not stopping you to read even if you're busy(:. haha.

Picture no 1: SNORLAX!

The current obsession of the current section at TJ! HAHAHAHAHA! i still think its damn uber duper cute. hahaha. with his coolio body slam. hahaha.

Okay, so proper blogging starts now! haha.

Event 1: ORIENTATION UNDEFINED-IGNITE THE INFINITE: adventures with OG 14.

This event, haha, was something that im really proud of. haha. something tha ti felt that i really worked hard for, and i deserved it, and im really really proud of it. haha. many things happened, many friends made. and im really really proud of this event. haha. Also, am really proud to be in beta/zandor. haha. beta rocks. haha. out of the 4 houses, i am quite glad that i entered beta/zandor and met such an awesome OG like 14. haha. also, yup, also with the team of Bernard, aurial, priscillia, Wenhui, connie, lavina, jocelyn, Bo jun and me. haha. will not ever forget this combi of ppl. haha.so here goes: oh ya, btw i really love the shirt! hahaha. of which only zandor ogls have(: haha. and also, the SWEET SHIRT THAT 14 MADE. OMG, love it. haha.

YUP I AM! hahah! so,

Day 1: Day of meeting, settling them in, quietness, and, well, trying to warm up.

The day started with j1s streaming into the audi. Everyone looking quiet, (i betcha all and everyone of them are feeling scared/nervous but all at the same time excited), everyone seems really reserved. and yeah, quiet. at that time, the 4 house caps are all at the front. shouting and cheering like mad. At that time, only all the OGLs know the cheers, so apparently everyone was screaming at the top of their voices without caring on whether it will get lost nots. but lucky for me, at the end of day 1, my voice is still intact! although it already showes signs of derterioriating. I still can remember the vague scenes of lavina and jocelyn all near me, and everyone was screaming like mad. aurial, bernard they all were at the front. Bo jun was somewhere around also. hahaha. then after that, i guess, they were all asked to stand up with the cheer sheets being given out. all uncertain, some tried, some didnt. but still, haha, it was only the first day! thereafter, a whole darn boring series of talks. haha. of which i felt that the time could be given for the j2s to attend the lectures. at that time, was sitting at the back. haha. with lavina and bo jun, i remembered that the 1408 ppl were rushing their compres, whilst us 2208 ppl were doing our bio(photosynthesis) and everyone else were doing all their different stuff. But after a while, everyone got tired, so we ended up talking. haha. had a really fun time talked to bojun/jerald, etc. haha. damn funny. ahha. thereafter it was lunch, the OG sat in a circle, with aurial in the middle intro, trying to get everyone warmed up and stuff. Went back to school, for another round of that:

see what i mean!. hahahaha. cool hor. our og is quite a big og. so, haha, its cool though. told them about some admin stuff. told them about them having to brainstorm about the skit. haha. tried to remember their names, but some can, some will mix up.(like the whole bunch of tkgs girls at the start, oh man! the names kept on getting mixed uP! haha. like xiu yi and huiqi) hahaha. funnaye. haha. but at the end of the first day. everyone went home tired, slightly intro-ed to the school. But on the first day, still i was a bit quiet. haha. but still, managed to talk to some of them, tried remembering their names, thought that some looked scary, some okay. ahha. and some left first impressions on me. haha. but no worries, they are all good. haha. went home, tired, haha, and, well, feeling guilty that im not that enthu,high just yet. haha. talked with lala abit on the way home, and that must learn to be high the next day. haha.

Day 2: Chronicles of the amazing race.

Ahh. the day where the OG started getting bonded. The OG was split into 2 that day. 14a and 14b. hahaha. with bernard, aurial, connie, priscilla taking 14a on this day, and bojun, lavina, jocelyn, wenhui and me on the 2nd. haha. We didnt manage to complete the race in the end. but still, haha, that time the OG bonded, and well, haha, we've got closer to many more of the juniors. I remember talking to the juniors in the morning, haha, like saying hi and trying to remember all their names. hahahahahahha. so anyhow, with 14b, mingled around, talked around. haha. and to my astonishment, 3 flautists in my OG. haha. amazing yo. hahaha. Talked to many many other OGMs as well, all varied interests etc. haha. first stop was white sands: at NTUC, looking for products. MAN are they fast! and they're smart and they rock. and this is the time when they started mingling around. haha. also thanks to people like seow koon, shihui, kangwei, etc etc, haha, the mood started lightening and everyone started talking, and this is when everyone warmed up. haha.

At white sands:

There're more pics on that, but i guess, this is enough. haha. look at how they frantically and enthusiastically participate in the activities la. For once, i was quite quite quite surprised and happy. haha. everyone just participated, from jian liang to yun leng, huiqi, xiu yi(one and two) hahaha! yup. haha. Headed to simei after that for the next game. Due to a huge amount of time wasted there, we only managed to complete 3 stations. But before we left white sands, haha, bo jun taught the whole 14 a new cheer(which eventually spread to EVERY SINGLE OG) hahahaha, at the end of orinetation, though simple words, but, a huge power hidden behind it. the words are. "lets go 14, lets go." hahaha. damn coool. and also, a new tactic to cheer to the station masters, to surround them nearer nearer, louder louder. HAHA.then, taught them cheers at simei there, somewhere near eastpoint, somewhere outside kj's house. HAHA.

^Look at them doing the cheer la! HAHA.

^and thats Yun leng, going through the maze. Many other OGMs went through that, but due to a rush of time i just anyhow grabbed one picture. mymy, their memories are good! haha. you guys who know yunxi can ask her about it. she was the station master for that game. 14 really rocks. haha.

Thererafter headed to bedok reservoir to play the shoe game. haha. it was really funny seeing ppl play the games that we've played before. hahaha.

^Jian liang there looking for his other half, together with many many others looking frantically for their other half who has their shoe. haha.

^haha, shot 2! Im there! you can see jocelyn too. hahahaha.

^Shihui and Raihan HAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. the found their half! Donovan and lidong at the back also if you guys can see! hahah. and jocelyns' there(:

Well, due to the lack of time, we felt that the OGMS should have their lunch, better not to sacrifice lunch for the game. haha. and we're glad that we did the right thing(:. haha. enjoyed lunch at the canteen. and brought them up for mass dance thereafter: haha. they cheered too. and boy were they loud! haha.

Thereafter, they started brain storming for ideas for skits thereafter. But I think they got their basic storeyline out alr. haha. well, i guess, thereaftetr, they headed to under lt 1 and started to cheer as 1 zandor clan. hahaha. it was damn awesome seeing how they participate. mignled around the OGMs, trying to get them to cheer. etc. hahhaa. new cheers were learnt in the process as well, but then, they cheered. and by that time, the OG14 got quite close alr. hahaha. thereafter they went home alr. haha.

I cant really remember what happened during the 3rd day. haha. but then,

3rd day: Games around the college campus with 14a, and skit acting out.

Okay, mass games were really fun that day. haha. switched with the other team of 14 OGLs. haha. so took 14a this time. at first, they were damn quiet. haha. but we managed to hype them up(:. yay. hahaha. went around the stations, booping on flour-ed chairs, squeezing on benches, get saliva blown onto your face while blowing ping pong balls, grabbing sponges. hahaha. and also, met a few of my friends who are station masters. like Daniel! hahaha. who was damn damn nice to award our group with a hell lot of points. hahaha. and also how 14 always shouts and cheers at the top of their lungs. proud of them. really proud of them haha.and how whenever 14a and 14b meets, they were together shout: LETS GO 14 LETS GO. and that was when every single group starts saying that line alr. hahaha. some games we totally pwn others. haha. while some games, we got pwn-ed.hahaha!. oh and at the flour game, oh my, some of the OGLs were really scary. Like the look of desperation to win was damn scary.i think some of you all might get what i mean. haha. dont understand but interested can ask me to act out for you all. haha.

^(okay this above shot was stolen from the beta legged race) BUT ITS OKAY. HEE. we played there for the flour game. hahaha!

mass dance. then i think they went home alr. hahaha.

4th day: SKIT PRESENTATION DAY, SUNTEC MASS DANCE, THE NIGHT OF WILD HIGH.

okay, then rehearsed with them abit on the skit. hahahahaha. Okay, the 4th day was when i think i really talked to them a hell lot about the script/edited it for them, and really maluated myself bad in front of the whole OG. but then, ahha, when they laughed, it was good. that showed that it was okay(:. hahaha. The rest of the OGLs sat there, but it's okay. hahaha. Like having to act gay, act bimbo, act this, act that, adding in stuff to the script. hahaha. but also, thanks to the awesome OG, who all are like, wow, damn responsive spontaneous, haha, which got me so nervous during when they are acting. haha. though they didnt get in, at least they tried their best. haha.

^black hands at the right end of the picture=my hands. of which you can see, all the gleeing faces of the OGMs. hahahahaha. die, but nvm la, malu myself alr then malu lor. haha.

Took a picture with them after that. FINALLY A FULL OG PIC! hahaha. awesome eh! haha.(that shot was named traffic light) hahaha. you all should get what i mean. hahahahahhahahaha. damn awesome. Though they didnt get into the script selection, it was okay, cos we enjoyed battle of the titans on the fifth day instead of a full day of rehearsing(:. aha. so anyhow, we all headed to KFC for dinner thereafter. bernard, thanks for the toblerone(:. haha. and also, that day, we found out that the OGMs all wanna pangseh the OGLs ehh. mean pokais. hahahaha. but still no worries, im sure that you all love us. hahahah! and also damn funnY! seow koon was banned to talk all the way till suntec. hahah. the fun thing was that bo jun and me went to ga chiao. hahahahah! damn funny. on the train, on the way there, talked to kristal(SC NOMINEE) vote for her k! hahahaha. raihan, here and there. hahaha. then, ho my god. THAT NIGHT WAS THE HIGHEST OF HIGHEST OF HIGHEST NIGHT LA.(OTHER THAN ORINETATION NIGHT) hahaha. but i think we all enjoyed ourselves. hahahaha. around the fountain, enjoying the splashes, dancing to the mass dance tune, running around in circles with the OG! haha. istill can remember benedict behind me. hahaha. and the whole big chain! hahaha. and in the end, we ran back and danced too. DAMN FUN especially speedy! hahaha. love it. Dinner at subway that night with most of the OG. haha. the guys and girls were all like gossiping and everything about each other. that was one dinner which i enjoyed a hell lot. i remember that night everyone was high. haha. so i was talking rot, but everyone was also alughing. HAHA. the guys ended up gossiping about the girls, whilst the girls ended up gossiping amonst each other, again leaving the OGLs out. so in the end, we talk amongst ourselves. HAHAHA. okay la, but it was fun. everyone went home thereafter. hahaha. reahched home quite late. hahahaha.

DAY 5: LAST DAY, ORIENTATION NIGHT, BATTLE OF THE TITANS.

that day, the day started out with battle of the titans! haha. it was damn fun. all the way until, i was being asked to accompany 2 OGMs out to cut their hair. In the end, pei-ed them to cut their hair. but who knows, got closer to the both of them. haha. WH and XH. well, after cutting guess what, ended up heading into the DM-s office. All i know, is that, unanswerable questions were being posed. and, well, i felt like hugging them(as in, one shoulder) when we were in there. It was horrible. WE managed to pull through, but XH cried a bit. scared the hell outta me. haha. well, told the OGLs about it. and im glad that everyone was all together. so its k. haha.checked every single OGMs hair thereafter, with the help of aurial and bernard to cut their hair(professional hair cutters! haha), for those who are long. and guess what, DM drove out the gate whilst our checking. -.-. Thereafter lunch at parkway macs, joked abit: haha. anyhow, me,jing hong and matthew on the bus:

^HAHA. dont be fooled by this image. haha. MAT was the one sleeping most of the time instead of jinghong. HAHA.

^Xiaoqi, huiqi and yun leng

hahaha. Wenhui, kang wei and everyone were like joking at macs, so were seowkoon, shihui, Nafeeshah, the big gang. haha. damn funny. headed back to school for OG night. the performances were okay only la. was quite impressed with alphas one. haha. yeah, they won in the end, but who cares. things started getting high at around 9/10. when the music was being played, everyone was high. THE WHOLE OG WAS BOPPING UP AND DOWN, CHOOCHOOTRAINING AROUND THE WHOLE HALL LA! haha. i remember aonan and chloe behind me hahaha. and the rest of the OG. with xian(an OG6 ogl! a really really nice guy! haha). and also, dancing and bopping. even the MCS, were praising on 14s highness. well not openly la. but prasied! haha. and guess what the OGMs did halfway whilst dancing. THEY DECIDED TO TAOPOK ALL THE GUY OGLS. evil evil. HAHAHA. at first Bo jun got taopoked

^OW. hahahah

then they continued dancing, bopping, being high, swaying, jumping, hahahaha. and guess what. when i was doing all that. Kang wei, who was standing near me, went" EHEHEH!" I thought was like some important annoucement like that. *points at me" "ONE MORE ONE MORE! ATTACK AHHH!" one whole big mass of guys started pushing me donw. hahaha. was resisting at first. then in the end, i just "okay okay okay" and just laid there, feeling the immense weight of the guys on me as shown below:

so thereafter, me and bojun came up with a hell evil plan to make them do the same thing to bernard. HAHAHAHA. when he came, we all were grabbing him la! and yay, succeess. hahahaha.: SUCCESS! 14 14 IS THE BEST!

HAHA. WELL. everything ended on a high note. and like, istill can remember nafeeshah jumpiung and sweating like a mad girl too! haha. and chloe, aonan, everyone. oh and xiaowee got spasm ah! haha. zhiyuan was like controlling him. damn uber funny!. hahahahahaha. anyhow, took a pic at the canteen. and well, everyone was mad. still highing, cheering like mad. haha. but well, the final 2 shots from orientation:

^spot me if you can. haha. thats if you're really bored and have nothing to do. but then again, okay i shall spoil it for you, look at somewhere near the top. aha.

14 did have a dinner after orinetation at long johns during after road run, talked abit again the same same, and it will be long before we all can meet up and talk and everything again, btu then, haha, they made of all of us shirts. THE ONLY OG TO DO SO(:. haha. IM REALLY REALLY PROUD, HONOURED AND LIKE REALLY FLATTERED TO BE IN 14. LIKE REALLY. hahaha. THANKS 14, FOR THE MEMORIES. any of you who hop by here, THANKS. HAHA(:.

and for one more time:

"14 ZAI NOTS!"

ZAI!

14 ZAI NOTS!

ZAI!

14-ZA-OH-A-OH-A NOTS!

SO UBER DUPER ZAI!

and well, 14 is <3,>

Event 2: CLASS RANDOM STUFF THAT HAPPENED

This shot was taken during go green day. can see may?(:. hee. haha.quite fun ahh that day. talked abit to the class guys, here and there, knocking around the doors, dragging newspapers around. ahha. yup. bonded the class quite a bit. was spamming the class peeps with all the new jokes learnt at eighteen chefs during lunch. HAHA. ALSO, OH MAN, THE DAMN COOLIO OUTING RIGHT AFTER MCTS. MOVIE. CONFESSIONS OF A SHOPAHOLIC. WOA. THAT MOVIE IS SO GREAT. hahah. an awesome lunch at astons, a great comfy seat with no ppl to kick your chairs and a huge screen with a touching story line, and like, thereafter we all walked aimlessly at plaza sing. talked to many ppl. and well, yup it was a whole awesome fun day.

22/08 IS THE BEST MAN. hahahha. like, my source of emotional dependence, my source of highness, my source of everything. like really. The best class ive ever ever been in in my 17 years of education journey. hahahaha.

Also, a crazy shot with van and sj whilst feeling damn uber bored/sianned from work at the school library:

^ stop laughing! (well if you're laughing) haha.

Also, as mentioned, during chinese A level collection of results day, we went mad at the play ground near school. the see saw was pure madness. and so was this spinning thing, whereby our butts are badly burnt. hahaha. and we played slow mo catching to relieve stress. haha. LAo jiu shi lao ler. hahahahahahahhaha! but still, it relieved a hell lot of stress before the collection of papers. haha. you gsuy can read whatever is in chinese below this post. but if you want a translation, you can ask from me verbally! im lazy to translate. hahhaa!

Also, the collection of PW results are going to be soon. and its already close to the end of 3rd month in school. im worried, sick for As. but its okay, as seen from previous posts. i think you guys can already know the stress mouting from life here. But im thankful for the 4day weekend that we can have to chill out. hahahaha.

Event 4: this 4 day weekend.

haha, the first thursday, spent earlier playing clarinet with Mei. hahahaha. then going out with the class to cathay as mentioned earlier(:. hahahaha.

the 2nd day, was spent with Meiyee, chiawhong, and sihui. HAHAHAHA. THAT DAY WAS PURE UBER MADNESS LA. haha. i kept on peeing, cos i drank 7-8 cups of fruit punch, coke, ice lemon tea and ice peach tea. there's this really cool games cafe somewhere at bugis. i dont mind going with small groups there after JCTs or sth! hahahahaha. anyhow for this, i shall let the pictures to illustrate the story! hahahahahha.

^we started off with this monkey game like thingy where we can let the monkey fall off to the floor. hahahaha. with all the complicated sticks where you have to remove. Chiawhong's concetrating. HAHA.

^Then we played some word/category game, slamming our hands onto the pad like thingy sohuting out words. there was one catergory which was vulgarities. and wow, that was the one where everyone earned the most points. hahahah. There was one also. the category was body parts and the word was D. " i said DICK!" then after that, the next one was Artiste/composer, hahahahaha, I shouted "DICK LEE!" hahahaha

^OOO. the monkey game again. haha.

^Played Jenga truth or dare thereafter. HAHA. okay la, it was okay only. cos, apparently not much things to ask. HAHA. but still it was awesome madness. Look at how happy chiawhong is! haha.

^Then we played some Cat screening game. where by we have to obtain the leasts number of points on the cards that we have. HAHA. thats me and meiyee through the catometer. hahahahaha.

^I know you all are just trying your best not to laugh hahahhaa. okay la okay la, dont so bad. hahahaha.

^sihui doing some charades thingy

^now, let professor meiyee show you how to use the catometer. Guess who she sees.

^this is what she sees.(:. haha. oh man, my descriptions of the pictures are really lame ah. sighs. (sisi, i know your head is nodding profusely now, hahahahaha.)

and now, i know you're giggling to yourself.

SEE! HAHAHHAHAHAHAH!

^then we played tabboo like game called pink elephant. haha. dont konw how and dont know why, meiyee is being labelled as it. haha. but i dont know what im doing, but i look damn unglam on this shot.(now you all can laugh. hahaha)

^Okay i really dont understand this shot. hahah.

^thinking deep. (Stop laughing! hahaha!)

^us 4 with the uber uber cute characters from old maid! haha.

^charades again!

^CUTE HOR!

^ HAHA. we played some guns and cash game thereafter, was fun pointing at each other and like everything. HAHA.

^ why do i hear laughter again. hahaha. Charlie's angels.(:

^SHOOT!

^Meiyee's artistic shot

^Gang bang chao feng! hahaha. her knight in shining armour! appear! haha.

oh and we played some cool shooting ducks game also. hahahaha.

then we walked to bugis/raffles place, talked abit, posed for photos. haha.

well, and thats like practically all the interesting bits that happened over the past months. haha. well, theres one more, about band, about my 4 new juniors. but i shall feature them in the next post. hahahaha. well till then, i cya guys around. next week is back to a week of stress and horror. but you know what, this time, i say, bring it on. shabuya. hahahaha.

well logging off. 2 HOURS OF BLOGGING. ahhahahaha! btw, jiayou for those who are in sports pdps, and like aesthetics pdps. especially band ppl, og 14 ppl and 2208 ppl. we have got to pull through this yo. we can do it! haha. and also, to all my seniors out there, in NS, JIAYOU JIAYOU. bear through it. you all can do it! hahah. (although it's reallly hard. but lets do it!)

Oh. and i sense that sisi's gonna kill me on monday. ahhahahaha. and maybe chaofeng also. But then, hahaha, this is the only post that i can post about her.(hey i do ask my permission rights) hahahaha. but then, if lets say you all find anything mean/offensive/want to be taken off(applies to SH, CH and MY) do tell okay, haha, i will take it off. and i really dont mean to offend or anything. if it did, let me know, tag me, msn me, or, call/sms. yup.

btw, haha, there's one last quote that i wanna say before i go, its on my msn nick la. haha. so do check it out if you all can. haha. and i guess that'll be sth that only we 4 can understand. hahaha. oh ya, Kairu! we've got to go there together the next time k! probably after JCTs/As. hahaha. It'll be really awesome. hahaha. lets all jiayou togehter jiayou jiayou jiayou!

Anyhow, stacey! hahaha. oh mannn. just got your present. man! didnt get to send you off. oh well, shall go tag at your blog. Thanks so so so so much for the great gift and sweet postcard. it was really uber duper sweet of you(:. and am missing you a whole lot to yo. haha.

-jErM

its been long, since i really talked to you.

But i shouldnt be so foolish anymore,

to let anymore things continue.

or allowing my thoughts to run wild.

I shall let nature take its course.

If its meant to be, its meant to be.

and although all these feelings will be in me,

I guess, i shall leave it to you fate, to give me my answer.

cos, yeah, im not gonna be bothered by these things anymore.

but it'll be just say only i guess, cos it will still say.

but then if chances are that theres no opputune to open up to yuo,

or if there're chances to open up to you.

then, my answer is said.

2009-03-21T05:11:00.000-07:00

Weather: Sunny, rained

21st March 2009

music: sentimentale-Claude bolling

Chanced upon a rainbow on the way back from tuition today. pretty aint it, sorry if the camera resolution sucks. But, made a wish upon it though.mmm. Today, was like the first day of the holidays, when i felt that studying was productive. other than the little bits here and there during the holidays. Went for alumni prac this morning instead of TJ's prac, i kindda know that im not supposed to, considering the fact that syf is coming up really soon. But then, went back to see how everyone is and everything, though its a really wrong time to do so. =/. pfft.

Anyhow, today, was quite a stony/sad/thoughts running through my mind like mad day. and i desperately need a place to rant, so, dont bother reading this post if yeah, you dont want to, cos it will just be boring. Somehow, despite MCTs coming up and a whole lot of things not studied(of which im going to study right after this post), but here goes.

First of all, academics:
Somehow, i suddenly thought through something today. Somehow, for the case of studying, i suddenly realized why the sec 2 year of studying was so much more fun, and the last half year of sec 4 was so fun to study, and thats cos, i actually made use of what i am. Kinesthetic. writing out and doing out the thing. and its not only in 1 subject, its in ALL the subjects. Like Mrs Tang makes us do Compres regularly every week until we get sick of it, Miss Ong often throws us with math practices every week, Mr lua gave us chinese stuff to do, There were a stack of papers of which mr yap left us, wrote out the organic chem maps, writing out notes, and like the loads and loads of practices that Mr Njoo gave, although mrs wan helped too, and like mr das and mdm kang, making us go through a hell lot of essays and actually doing them.

The secret, for me to succeed, is to practice, and do. And now, i finally realized why im not doing so well in TJ, well at least for the first year and all the current tests, thats because i dont do. I need to DO. DO DO DO. its like i need to practice and do. or at least, find myself the time to do this. Its not like im visual or audio. so hence the need to. lets see, Mr goh now doesnt even give a damn whether we do tutorials a not, Mr Gan, well its just cos he just somehow always skip checking my tutorial last year, Mr Ng(WHICH IS LIKE CATCHING ME EVERYTIME THAT I DONT DO TUTORIALS NOWADAYS), but when i do he never check -.-, and like Mr Chan doesnt even give us any practices. and now what, Mr NG(for bio) DISCOURAGES US TO COPY. HEY DUDE, PPL NEED THIS COPYING. omg, well at least for me la. So like, haiz. Okay, im making a promise to myself, to practice hard on whatever chapters that're coming out.

-DO LOTS AND LOADS OF COMPRES AND ESSAYS FOR GP
-DO MATH TUTORIALS! (hey, im doing all my math tutorials this year) BUT TO FINISH AND CLARIFY LAST YEARS ONE!
-i promise, IM GONNA START DOING CHEM STARTING FROM KINETICS
-AS FOR ECONS, I KNOW THAT THERE'S MR NG'S ESSAYS TO DEPEND ON, SO YUP! I CAN DO THIS.
-AND FOR BIO, yes im gonna conquer all my tuts.

JCTS. YOURE 3 MONTHS AWAY, BUT FOR ONCE, IM GOING TO SHOW MYSELF, THAT A DUMB HSC KIA CAN DO WELL IN THIS SCHOOL. YES. but all i can say is that, i hope that i can last through the more intensifying practices of syf. and give me the energy to do so. yes, i have to discipline myself. and like obviously, MCTs next week aint gonna be all right. But at least, i know already what im going to do.

-i guess i shouldnt think so much at times-

thanks for all the optimism that you guys are bringing to me nowdays yeah.(: haha, i think you guys is quite broad, but never mind. you guys know who you are.(:.

-jErM

2009-03-19T06:22:00.000-07:00

okay. Woa. Posting from my phone for the first time. Mmm. Haha. Sighs. Todays such a bad day. Many things happened. But its k. Shant rant. But feeling horrible now..Feeling really really quite screwed for mcts. Its like. I cant get the energy to chiong hard. Haik. And ive been sleeping like a pig. Ah well. Tomorrow will be better. 3 more days. Shucks. I hope that things will turn out fine..or rather i hope this stage of hell will end soon. Help. -jErM

2009-03-11T06:32:00.000-07:00

Weather: sunny
11th March 2009
Music: Love story, teardrops on my guitar- taylor swift.

haha, its been days since i last blogged, and i guess, i cant really afford the time to blog much now, but, work's piling up, feeling screwed for MCTs( but not giving up), and, tired from trying to balance studies and band up. Actually kindda looked through my Portfolio just now, and i realized that its damn blank. O.o DDD;. nvm, see what i can do. humph. Anyhow, i am going to do a LONG LONG LONG LONG and PROPER post right after MCTs. i promise, ESPECIALLY ORINETATION, omg, ive not typed about that for a damn uber long time alr. I really promise am gonna do a pictury-wordy post. haha. but aik, who reads here anyway. so uber wordy. haha. OH YA. HAPPY OSAKA ANNIVERSARY DAY. haha. at this time, its 10.39pm at Osaka. and boy do i miss there. haha.and, god, theres a HUGE pile of work waiting for me, i'll try to make this quick although it's gonna take me up till damn long, but, haha, yup, am going to do this post in chinese, and although nobody will really read it. I guess im still gonna do it, so here goes.

这样，就这样，一年就这么飞过去了。想一想，在我生活里，再也不用考华文这一颗了。会考都考了，什么也完了，真的，再也不用为华语这一颗担心了。这一次的成绩，我只觉得，是幸运才拿到的。我那时说，拿了B，就已经够满足了。真的。当时要拿回成绩时，我只知道很怕。心跳得非常快。还记得当天，什么事也不想做。当时，想到不管怎样都不要再从考了，5颗的GP，bio，chem，math，econs，都已经很难了。所以就决定这样。当时，还记得，要拿回成绩，那位老师拖拖拉拉的，把每一个人弄得更紧张。倒霉的，我们班的前半还要等的许久。看到周围的人拿回，有些，大喊大叫，给了一个“我成功了！”的一种感觉。又有些一看到成绩就哭了，而且，有些还看到哭的很惨。终于，到我们拿回成绩了。本来很怕的，但，我看到自己拿了A时，心情没怎样。没有欢呼，也没有高兴得哭。只觉得stonestone的。自己也没有什么心情high起来，看到周围的人哭，看到周围的人stone，就是没有什么心情。我只希望，那会PW时，整班一起HIGH，那样，才好。我只是在想，成功，为什么大家不可以一起成功。好过分。真的。所以，我现在只希望PW大家一起拿A。对。但，也不可以这样说。因为，我们22/08一班，没有一个需要在从考。而且，有很多人拿了B。所以，我觉得还好。我也为几位同学感到很骄傲，觉得他们很厉害。所以，恭喜2208，我们一起，全部，都及格华文了（：。我也觉得有些人不应该得到这样的成绩，应该更好，如果能的话，我会给他们全部放A。因为，大家都有努力。）：。但，我没办法这样做。其实，这次，也得好好感谢从我小学到现在的每一位华文老师。因为，没有他们，成绩也不会这样。珍老师，黄老师。中一的红老师！谢谢你们哈哈，还有，谢老师（中二）的老师。

那些对我深刻很深的，为我付出许多的，一，谢谢佘老师，把我的小学华文基础打得好。没有你，什么事情也不可能了。二，中三和四的赖老师，虽然在班上每次都会失去集中，常常和我们说故事，讲很多很多的废话，但，也帮了我。还有，三，在J1，今年，林老师，让我在TJ感到华文是可以变得好玩的。也常常关心我的成绩，也对我有高的期望。四，叶老师，在J1 ，陪我们最最久的老师，起初还不是很喜欢她，因为，第一堂课就骂人，但，以时间慢慢的过，就觉得她是个非常好的老师，常常high起来。虽然有时pon课，虽然，有时在课睡觉，但，她真的也教了我不少，还有，四，董老师，陪我们走最后一段路的老师，谢谢你也让我们想起叶老师，因为也很high，也对我有很高的期望，也常常给我支持。连，离开TJ后，也肯让我询问你关于大学的问题。谢谢你们这四位，虽然，我不知道你们会不会读到，但，我很荣幸，能当你们的学生。是我有这个幸福。谢谢你们。(: 虽然还有很多很多东西要讲，但很累，况且，还有很多功课要做。得走了。

well, although there're a lot more things to talk about, i guess, its time for bed/abit more of isomerism before i go to bed. haha. whoops, hope its not to toturing man. haha. going off. night night.

-jErM

2009-03-04T20:17:00.001-08:00

Weather: sunny
5th March 2009
music: -

woa. havent posted for a long long time. haha. there's a break now, and the last lesson of the day is econs followed by that, sectionals. Right ear ached like hell yesterday, like ever since in chem lecture, there is like, whenever the hamster spoke, its like a DOOB sound going in my ear, and that went on all the way till the NTU talk. Thereafter, went to see a doctor after some persuasion, and lucky enough for me, ear drops and pills did help me to get through today. But then, after PE today, theres like some excruciating pain happening somewhere above my left thigh, and like every step I take hurts, god if this cant cure before the 11 legged race, i guess i'll have to get myself a replacement. =/.

anyhow, recently in class, just wanna say that the general mood of the class is burnt. Sleeping in lectures, distracted in tutorials, not paying attention in classes, no mood to even do anything right now. Its like, and im part of that. Its not that im burnt, rather its sianned. Ever since the end of orientation, ive been trying really hard to get back into the mood and momentum from wherever ive left off. But then, its like, i cant seem to get back into that mood, which sucks. Currently, bands like. mmm. heavy. real heavy. 4/7 days a week, and its getting harder to cope with the mounting amount of tutorials and lectures. and its like, haiz. nvm, its k, im still trying my best to cope I guess. But then, academic wise, its getting really hard. Macro econs is like, mmm. seems foreign right now. and like, the application of bio syllabus is like, ):. At first, it seemed okay, listenable. But i totally lost myself after gel electrophoresis. and math? woa, ive lost the lecturer in the binomial distribution lecture. Chem energetics is like, giving me a headache as well. and GP till now's like ):. Everyday, just trying to be okay, trying to smile. and im succeeding in that. But its like a big pile of mess inside. And its not like as though my fluting rocks or anything. goodness. I wanna like concentrate one by one, one step at a time. But everytime when i get the time to do all this, it just ends up as sleeping time, or well, something like that. Goodness me. Everyday in school, its like tired, tired, and, mmm, tired? I cant really go on like this. I'll die. I need the time to like, go through the things that i dont understand, but apparently, lessons are marching ON and ON and ON and ON. its like the stress will never go away--ay--ay-ay-ay-ay-ay. Just really, i wish time could pause, just for a moment. allow me to refresh, and lemme continue to try to head on from there. and im so sick of the grades im getting. Its always just a mere pass, or well, close to there. I miss As, and Bs. I miss them a hell lot. I dont care, this MCT, i WILLLLLL SMELL MY FIRST A HERE IN TJ. YES I WILL. omg, tired, but yes, ive got to try. well, 8 more mins to lessons, getting back there. shit, feeling sleepy, hope i dont fall asleep or anything. :/.

On a brighter and sadder note, A level results is tomorrow. and im going to make a strong bet that ANDY WILL TOP TJ! hahaha. anyone wanna take up this bet? haha. and well, sadder, cos, im worried for my chinese morrow. hope everything will turn out fine man.

-jErM

~~Ive not really bothered about anything emotionally recently.~~
Already, ive just realized that im not glancing over to your direction anymore in lectures.
Tell me that all this is a result of tiredness.
Please tell me it is. sighs. like really. Yeah i think it is, shouldnt think so much.

2009-02-17T07:54:00.000-08:00

Weather: sunny
17th February 2008
Music: crush-David archutela
event: Bel's bday(:

haha. well, its unlike of me to post after the day that ive posted. but oh well here goes. Today has been a really really tiring, exhuasting, bad and arduous day for me. with school ending at 440, sectionals till 7.00, (but i left at 6 for bishan), reached 7.00 at bishan for econs tuition all the way till 9.45. and got home like not long ago(the time now's like 11.56) there's organic chem test tmr, so im gonna mug as much as i can after this post. But reason for this post is, today's dinner suddenly made me remember about that something which i have always wanted to blog for for very long but always cant remember to do so. yup.

After i got home, exhausted, showered, mum cooked dinner today. Somehow, im thankful that my mum cooks at times, like perhaps once/twice out of 4 days? yup. haha. whenever she cooks, im like, woa, im the most blessed kid in the world kindda feel. In the past, I used to find mcdonald's and kfc is like the best food in the world. But i guess when you grow up, you just start to slowly realize that the best things all come from home. I guess, when nobody wants you anymore in school, like even if you're the most loathe-d person in the entire world, there's still always your family to fall back on. For my case, i just somewhat feel that, yeah at times i fight with N, at times, S bugs me with endless questions from school, and well, D whom i try to hard to motivate but fail like 8/10 times. But still, I know despite everything, deep down, i know that my family will be there for me. I guess, there will always be that free private good of love supplied at home. But i guess, the one person which ive got to ought to thank is my mama. Something of the things that im gonna miss most from her when i grow up and upp-er, i guess, is her naggings and dinner(particulary soup). haha.

Somehow, back from the exhausting day today, i'm so lucky to get another round of mama's soup. There's a saying that goes: "A man goes home everyday, just to look forward to drinking his wife's soup." Im not saying that im a man or whatsoever, but, I guess, whenever mum cooks her soup, i'll most definitely be looking forth to that meal. Everytime when its warm, and you just drink from that bowl, you feel the cosiness from the warmth going down your oesophagus into your tummy. Like somehow you feel that the patience, love and everything that has been taken to cook that bowl of soup. Everytime after i drink her soup-s, its always a sense of rejuvenation thereafter. Like, even though it lasts for an extremely short while, at times long. I just feel so so so happy whenever soup is being made. Its like, a taste from heaven. And like, this taste, is so much better than the soups that you can find at any restaurants. Its like, just a feeling which is so indescribable. A feeling of love, a feeling of, how should i say, reassurance. I dont know how I should describe it, really. its just, so so relieving and comfortable after that bowl.

So, I guess, through the year, im gonna learn how to make soup. Like nice-drinkable-warm ones, and like gonna cook it for people should they ever need. Omg, soup soup soup(:. Soup is love <3. haha. and also, like, other than soup, im gonna learn how to make baked rice. yes, i will i will. hahaha, but before all these leisure activities, I guess its time to go off in this tired state of mind, to embarking on organic chem.

going off-

-jErM

2009-02-15T06:58:00.000-08:00

weather: sunny
15th February 2008
music: crush- david archuleta

hey ppl. woa. many events to blog about, but i cant afford the time to blog alot just yet. haha. i know theres orinetation to blog, but oh well, all i can say is that, OG 14 has been another of the one-of-the-best-things that has ever happened since Ive stepped into TJ thing. Well, im gonna miss them, miss all of them bad. The most rah rah, most on, most enthusiastic, most daring, most wonderful, most supportive, most bonded OG that ive ever known. All i knew is that, ive given my 200% into that orinetation, and i guess, im very very happy with the results. haha. ive striked off my wish, if you guys can see, haha, but im just really happy. And im gonna miss all of them, but i guess, ill still see them around school. so its good in a way too. haha, thanks you guys for the memories, the support, the WONDERFUL SHIRT. omg, the damn sweetest OG ever. only 9 of us in school posseses that shirt. woa ha. hhahahahaha. im feeling really proud and honnoured to have such an OG, and im really rreallly gonna miss orinetation.

but besides that, pulls me back to the real world. Next week is organic chem (Full syllabus) test and economic growth and NIA test. Im feeling really scared, but at the same time unmotivated. swimming today was great. But at the same time, it has got me drained. shit, wasted another weekend away. Ive been always looking forth to weekends so that i can study hard, but i always end up so so tired by the time i can study, and hence results in not doing anything. Great, ive not even started much on organic chem and the test is on tuesday. and macro economics is like RAH RAH RAH RAH, GRRRRR. SMASHES INTO A MILLION PIECES. omg, its like i dont know what the heck is going on kindda thing. Im like. ugh. nvm. During econs tuition last satruday, due to coming in late, and the previous lesson not attneding cos i was sick, i was totally lost, and it felt really really horrible and i felt like crying. almost everything seemed so overwhelming, and i had not idea at all what was going on. I kept giving that "thermometer face" as in frowning-what-the-heck-are-you-talking look. and like RAKLJASDFL;KJASL;DKJFALS;KDJFADS. even mr ng was like" jermain, can understand not." i was like" erm, erm, erm, i dont understand, damn confused, but nevermind, just go on" so this means that i will have to head down to bishan at 7pm for tuition, but i guess i'll need a lot of 100 plus and coffee for that lesson. shit. next week is going to be a time consuming-i-have-to-focus-although-im-really-tired week. pressured. I feel like, really ugh-ed up now. and chem lecture, chem energetics, i really dont know what the heck is going on kindda thing. and math, well, vectors is reallys tarting to confuse me, and im really started to lag in every subject.):. bad, way way way way bad.):. help me man, help. I feel really like in a big big mess right now. argh.):

but other than that, i know i have to stay calm. and handle things one step at a time despite all the tiredness and weariness. cos, im not the only one feeling this way, everyone's feeling it too. but its hard. really hard.

oh well, i guess i should like go to bed now, and sleep. perhaps, wake up much earlier tomorrow to study.

worried-Anyhow, the new song in my blog's really addictive, goodness. better get off to sleep.):.

-jErM

Why do I keep running from the truth
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I've just got to know

Do you ever think when you're all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go
Am I crazy or falling in love
Is it real or just another crush

Do you catch a breath when I look at
you holding back like the way I do
`Cause I'm trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain`t goin` away--ay ay ay ay
Goin` away--ay ay ay ay
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we're hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends
Is there more, is there more..

2009-02-03T06:44:00.000-08:00

weather: sunny, cloudy
3rd February 2008
music: uber high songs

OKAYYY. haha. i havent blogged like for uber long, and my voice sounds sexy now. okay fine, maybe not sexy, but my throat's like hoarse? and, like, yeah, ORIENTATION ROCKS SO FAR((;. well at least, OG 14 ROCKS! *WOOHOO* *runs around the room like some mad monkey* haha, okay, getting the orientation fever. haha. Anyhow, feeling uber tired now, but QUIZ FROM KR((:.

1.Besides your lips , where is your favourite spot to get kissed?
-too personal to be answered-

2: How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Drowsy from the previous days of high-ing and having to wake up uber early?

3: Who was the last person you took a photo with?
with the beta OGLs infront of our beta banner!

4: Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
A bit. haha, everyone is i guess? its singapore!

5: Would you ever donate blood?
Im scared of needles, but, haha, If there's a need to, yes, i will.

6: Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
yes, now i still have and we know each other's crushes and things like that.

7: Do you want someone dead?
Yeah.

8:What does your last text message say?
-too personal to be answered-

9:What are you thinking of right now?
sleep

10: Do you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes, very much. and its that someone. aik.

11: What time did you go to sleep last night?
9.30pm.

12: Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now ?
Not wearing any, just came out from the shower not long ago. Wrapped up in a towel?

13: Is someone on your mind right now?
yes.

14: Who was the last person to text you?
Lavina.

-Okay, im deleting the whole 2nd part of this quiz. haha. moving onn-

Rules and Regulations:-

Each player of this game start off with 10 weird things/habit/little known facts about yourself.-People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.-At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list this names.-

TEN ARE YOU(s)

1.) Are you single - yeah, i am currently.
2.) Are you happy - Currently, due to the highness from orientation, yes.
3.) Are you bored - stressed.
4.) Are you fair - quite tanned actually
5.) Are you Italian - nope, but i can cook spagetti too(:
6.) Are you intelligent - in a way?
7.) Are you honest - everyone lies at times.
8.) Are you nice - can i dont answer this.
9.) Are you Irish - not my name, not my race
10.) Are you Asian - 100%

TEN FACTS
1.) Full Name - Cho Koi Hong Jermain(Cao KaiXiong jermain)
2.) Nicknames - Jerm, main, Jerjer, toot gua, crazy cho
3.) Birth place - Singapore
4.) Hair colour - black!
.5.) Natural hair style - MESSY MAGGEE MEE LIKE HAIR?
6.) Eye color - black and white
7.) Birthday - 11th Oct
8.) Mood - Tired, sianned, worried, high.
9.) Favorite color - BLUE! and Green(:
10.) One place you'd love to visit - now? my bed. but others, mmm, hell.

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1.) Have you ever been in love - nope. not yet.
2.) Do you believe in love at first sight - nope.
3.) Do you currently have a crush? - yeah i guess, everyone does, right?
4.) Have you ever been hurt emotionally - Emotionally confused? yup.
5.) Have you ever broken someone's heart - did i? Im not so sure, dont think i did.
6.) Have you ever had your heart broken - not yet. And i hope it wont.
.7.) Have you ever liked someone but never told them - Yeah. Trying to but, oh nevermind.
8.) Are you afraid of commitment - nope!
9.) Who was the last person you hugged - mmm. I think it was grandma-s during CNY, but nvm, i think i hugged my mummy too(:
10.) Who was the last person you said I love you to? - family ppl

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1.) Smile or eyes - both!
2.) Light or dark hair - anything, so long as she loves me and i lover her
3.) Hugs or Kisses - both!
4.) Shorter or taller - shorter preferably.
5.) Intelligence or attraction - both? more of intelligence
6.) Topman or Zara - erhh, whats this?
7.) Funny or serious - Both as much! but funny and serious at the right time lah. haha.
8.) Older or Younger - Can i request for same age? but its k if its older or younger, preferably same age/younger.
9.) Outgoing or quiet - same ans as 7.
10.) Sweet or Bad - hahahahhahaha!. Sweet AND bad! haha.

TEN THIS OR THAT
1.) Love or Lust - love!
2.) Hard liquor or beer - ermmm, brandy? jollyshandy? ROOT BEER!((:
3.) Cats or dogs - Dogs!
4.) A few best friends or any regular friends - a few best friends
5.) Creamy or Crunchy - both at certain times
6.) Pencil or Pen - PENCIL!
7.) Wild night out or romantic night in - romantic night in.
8.) Money or Happiness - Both.
9.) Night or day - Night
10.) IM or phone - Both.

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1.) Been caught sneaking out - i guess, but i cant remember. haha.
2.) Seen a polar bear - zoo, documentaries, magazines
3.) Done something you regret - yup. a few.
4.) Bungee Jumped - (Kairu, i'll jump with you. hahahah.)
5.) Eaten food that fell on the floor - nope..
6.) Finished an entire jaw breaker - nope. whats that?
7.) Been caught naked - nope!
8.) Wanted an ex bf/gf back - dont have an ex-
9.) Wanted to disappear - many a time.
10.) Kissed the same gender - havent kissed anyone since i was uber young.

TEN HAVE YOU
1.) Ever performed in front of a large crowd - Band concerts, and concerts. haha. oh and OG NIGHT last year!
2.) Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour - yes, with many many ppl. haha.
3.) Ever tried walking on your hands - Probably land on the floor and BISHHH through all the levels to the ground. hahaha.
4.) Ever been to a rock concert - nope. S pop counted?
5.) Ever been on a cheerleading team - The team can get ready to be last.
6.) Ever been on a dance team - mass dance counted?
7.) Ever been on a sports team - nope.
8.) Ever been in a drama play/production - yup, when i was young.
9.) Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, hummer or Bentley? - dont mind all, but dont konw how to drive yet.
10.) Ever been in a rap video? - nope

TEN... LASTS
1.) Last phone call you made - HOME!
2.) Last person you hung out with - Lavina, Clarabel, Vanessa. walking towards mrt.
3.) Last time you worked - havent worked yet.
4.) Last person you talked to - mummy, chasing me for dinner.
5.) Last person you IM'd - cant remember.
6.) Last person you texted - Lavina.
7.) Last person(s) you went to the movies with - wanted to go with dan, and jo, but, haha, i guess didnt, i think, if never remember wrongly with sisters.
8.) Last person/thing you missed - -personal question-
9.) Last website you visited - kairu's blog.haha.
10.) Last kiss you had - cant remember. havent got one in a long time.

10 PEOPLE TO DO THIS QUIZ:
haha. oh man, its k if you guys dont wanna do k.(:

1. Michelle(tj clar)
2. Andrea (NO MORE YMOC AHHH! do quiz! haha.)
3. Lavina
4. May
5. Wei siong
6.Xinyun
7.Daniel
8.Bao hui
9. Annette
10.Vanessa

YAY DONE. haha. off to bed yo. okay maybe a bowl of rice from mama first. haha.

LETS GO 14 LETS GO (CLAPS CLAPS)
LETS GO 14 LETS GO (CLAPS CLAPS)
... (ON FOREVER AND FOREVER)

ZANDOR ZAI NOTS! ZAIII! ZANDOR ZAI NOTS! ZAIII! ZANDOR ZAI A NOTS!
aiya, SO ZAI, IMBA, HOT, SEXY, BA-EH. AND EVERYTHING LAA!

WOOOOO! ZANDOR AND 14 ROCKS. haha. overdosage of highness still. hahaha. oh well! cya guys soon.

gosh, lots of work to catch up on. :/

-jErM

2009-01-15T06:06:00.000-08:00

weather: sunny, windy
15th January 2009
music: -

Right now, im just feeling uber stressed up. Its only the 4th day of school, and so many many things have had happened over the start of school till now. Lessons, band, and everything, suddenly, everything just seems so overwhelming. And all of a sudden, I feel like, im a Dumb person in a school of elites. Today during bio lecture, Mr Ng went at a speed of which i could not even catch a thing. Respiration started today for bio lectures. and guess what, i caught nothing, and i guess i'll have to go read the things at tortoise pace. Then again, the same thing happened for econs. All I felt for lessons is that, The style of the j2 lecturing system works on auditory learning skills much more than visual or kinesthethic, which is what i learn best by. Change of learning methods? Yeah, i guess i'll have to learn how to learn auditorily too. But then again, I guess, i need to be a much hardworking boy this year. Also, Like i feel so disorganized and everything all of a sudden. like Im like, omg, im in a deep abyss, and endless deep abyss, and by the time i would've resurfaced, it would've been by the time i am about to die. I need to accelerate my speed of flying out of the abyss. Omg, you look at all the lecture notes and the way j2 is running, at j1 pae, i thought that things were stressful, but still manageable, at j1 it was like @#$%^&*()#$%^&*(, and right now it feels 100000x worse than @#$%^&*()@#$%^&*(. Okay, i need to get myself organized, and had better start work, organizing and stuff. It's been really long, since my head pounded so hard. And well, things are not looking at the bright side for the case of band now. All i can say is that, should we not work hard, the results are gonna be disastrous. Yes, i should work hard on my part as well. Time management, the way to play the game. Gosh 4th day of school, things please brighten up soon);. GAH.

anyhow, am gonna repost the part on CIP soon. yup. this weekend should i have the time. haiz. right, going off to read on aerobic respiration.

-jErM

I'm feeling myself to be a hateable person currently, an irritating and stupid one in fact. gosh.

2009-01-05T06:32:00.000-08:00

Weather: Generally sunny, rained a bit today
5th January 2009
music: just so you know- jesse mccartney

OKAY, before i start today's post, lemme ask you all to watch a video first. its only around 30 seconds, so wont take up much of your time. I promise, you wont regret it. Oh ya, tilt your head.

done? haha. Damnnn cute right. haha. YAY. chloe(niece) rocks(:. aik, sorry if the resoultion sucks, took it using phone, well, sis took it using the phone.
Okay before i start, here's a photo taken a reallllllyyy long time back, to celebrate yenny's bday. A photo with my close friends from 4E1.(:. haha. yay.

I remember having alot of fun that day. But, wont say out the details. But, haha, still can remember yenny going up to the middle of the restaurant and the waiters did a bday cheer. The picture was taken shortly thereafter. Remembered, all of us were there, cracking jokes, sharing nonsense, like, woa, it's been long since a session like that.):. Man, i miss all of you man. at least, well the times spent. Like all my dear friends who are in mj, WN, Don.. and ):. nvm, haha, we'll see each other soon i guess(:

anyhow back to blogging proper. So, as promised from the previous post, this is a continuation. man, i realized everything's extremely long, so here goes.

Event 1: Sharol and natasha's bday present

Okay, the day started, and i was supposed to bring them down to eighteen chefs for lunch. But when we got in, guess what. EVERYPLACE WAS FILLED UP.)))))))))):. The initial plan was to bring them to eighteen chefs to eat, and snow city! but aik. change of plans. lemme tell you all la. anyhow, so at east point, then they were like SAKAE SUSHI. and guess what, they didnt go easy on me this time =(((. Much more money spent on the other time, but aik, nvm la. haha. they enjoyed themselves though(:. or at least, the meal.

Ta-da. them eating. Thereafter, we took a train down all the way to jurong east..

When we finally reached snow city, THE QUEUE WAS DAMN UBER LONG. at first, i thought the queue was for, well, the restaurant, and it was for the ticket counter, cos apparently, there was some snowing thing la. haha. Then i was horrified, cos i felt that by the time we reach the counter, they will close shop alr. thereafter called xm jiejie, and asked whtehr could pop by their house nots. and, yay, haha, they were at home(:. so thereafter, headed to their house. haha. Took long ride on LRT, ran to bukit panjang plaza to buy some xmas gifts for them, and ran to their house. when we finally got there, haha, xm jie, chloe and jovan were there, together with edgar kor. But edgar kor's sleeping. so, haha, played with chloe and jov as usual. But when we got there, they were eating their dinner..

haha. CHLOE'S UBER CUTE, RIGHT RIGHT RIGHTT? omg, haha. like, can pinch her cheeks, and stuff. and omg, she didnt cry like as much when she was younger. she's 2 this year, but still. hahaa. so like me, s and n were having loads of fun carrying her round and round. and also playing with jovan of course.(:. Jo was having fun with thomas train. like trains. xm jie said that, "woa, like you when you're young" okay fine, if you all must know, im obsessed over thomas train, bananas in pyjamas, Big bear in the big blue house, and the colour of purple. and guess what, all these symptoms are appearing in Jov. =.=. hahahaha. but cool laa. haha. HE LOVES TRAINS. YAYYYYYY. haha. Jojo rocks. haha. but anyhow, yupyup. Thereafter, chloe was going mad after this balloon. so its like "poi poi poi" and like toddler's running here and there. But she's so uber cute.. ahhh. haha. Then, they had to shower thereafter, And aww, chloe was crying all the way in the shower. haha. jo's a big boy now, so, of course. haha. he didnt cry. Thereafter, there was no dinner for us. So, we were actually intending to call for pizza hut. but the line was busy, called for macs in the end. and omg, when it got here, jo went mad and hopped about like some mad monkey boy. haha. so yupyup, had meals, and they ate french fries whilst watching TV. i was initally planing to bring them to night safari after that, but since everyone was having so much fun, decided to stay on. haha.

hahahahha. JOJO is a handsome/cheeky boy. haha. aww man, haha, how i wish i could have like, them by my side everyday and make my troubles go away.. haha, thereafter, its time for bed. haha. tucked them into bed. and just nice, dad went to pick us up. haha. went home, and slept. haha. for your info, they live in chua chu kang, which is dunno how many hundred miles from tampines. so. haha. yupyup. and guess, this is the first unique bday present i gave S and N.(:

2nd event: Flute chalet

Okay. next event flute chalet. Before i start this, i would advise that it's better if you head over to the links and press "LYNETTE" or "MANNING" hahahhaahha, their descriptions will be much more entertaining, haha, but im penning my side down based on memories sake. haha. I'll try my best to remember as much as possible. yupyup. okay, on the first day, i was supposed to meet LH they all at downtown and everything at 2.30pm. was slightly late, and ended up meeting B, L and LH at mcafe. hahahaha. And they were having some secret surprise plan of which i wasnt supposed to spill(and im a good boy and i didnt k) haha, and yup, hahaha.

Thereafter, met MN and ZH at NTUC together with B, L and LH, shopped for more BBQ stuff before heading down to costa sands. when got there, was like, woa, damn small place, damn well, less clean than usual. haha. settled down a bit first. then i remember sth like zh going out to some mrt station and mn have to go home to take her stuff. leaving L, LH, and me in the chalet. haha. Stoned a bit, then yeah, went to buy the bbq pit with LH. then we started fire! WJ, WJ, came. and started fire. well, sort of. i forgot whether some went cycling or sth nots.

Thereafter, fire started! But then, haha, went in with LH, WJ to go and play flute. haha. so, guiltily, i only helped in the process of starting fire. =.=. haha. then I guess they cooked the food. haha. Played some trio pieces from LH after that with WJ and LH. Went mad laughing at some. Like there was this one about the wedding march. only started " DADADADA." and everyone laughed. woa, enjoyed the playing/sound. Anyhow, here's a shot from Mn toshikasa-.

and without time knowing, we were being asked to go down for the food. haha. i think LH helped out cooking thereafter too. yikes. haha. and it looked like as though its only 4pm in the chalet when its alr 8pm. went down for food thereafter. haha. Anyhow, yup, talked here there abit.

^Me, wj, hq

Then, after a long while of eating/chatting. OH YA. AND PSP-ING. i played some shooting counterstrike game. haha. and yeah, it was cool. haha. still, im best at sniper. Im a lousy boy. I cant run around and shoot. only can stay one spot, aim carefully and BABOM. According to lynette, which was quite true la. she asked me how to game was, and i said with a straight face, woa, damn exhilarating. haha. damn comical. hahaha. but then, after that, LH, B and L's jian plan was put into action. was some lucky draw thing.a nd guess what. I struck the top prize. -.-. haha. damn funny. hahaha. But then, didnt expect la. haha.

^ all the prize winners.

^MN and me. haha.

Left after the first night. haha. Band the next day. hahaha. then went out with kj and mitch thereafter and only reached the chalet at night. haha. Reached back, feeling awkwardly tired, saw Hil and J((:. haha. then after that, they were settling on the chalet bill. Remember got a bit serious la, but then after that. haha. it was okay. Psp-ed a bit during the night, went outdoors to stone with LH and WJ, saw them cycling, went back to observe the carmen score which i just got from that day, and psp-ed somemore, in the morning went to the beach and stoned, walked around, whilst everyone was asleep. haha. clear-ed up a bit. haha. then, yup, haha, thereafter, breakfast at DTE. Gossipped a bit. haha, then went home and slept like a pig. haha.

well, yay, summary skills are improving. haha(:. But then, if you guys want more details, haha, GO HOP BY "lynette" or "manning's" Blog. haha. I guess, it's more interesting. haha. had a good time laughing also(:.

3rd event: FIESTA! (ctd')

Okay, its only 1 picture ive got from christine toshikasa. hahaha. But still. yupyup! haha. thanks toshikasa for stopping by. Already blogged about fiesta on previous post, so hop by the previous one to fiesta if youall wanna read. haha. but yay! thanks toshikasa. haha. "supporting jermain day". hahaha. damn cool. haha.

Event 4: CIP(Class CIP)

Okay, before i start many thanks to lala and van for their pictures. haha. There're other pictures lying around but i still cant access it yet. hahaha. But anyhow, this post is gonna be really wordy, so unless you're really having nothing to do, dont bother reading but instead, just enjoy the pics. haha.

Okay, after serveral travel down to chua chu kang/pending, to meet mr vjoo for the preparation for the camp, the camp finally started. This 2 day camp. Class CIP was directly the day after fiesta concert. So you can imagine me reaching home late, and having to wake up at like 6++ to meet them at bedok. haha.

But, anyhow, everyone dragged their unconcious bodies all the way to bedok/ some at pasir ris, and headed down to chua chu kang. On the way to the place, everyone was still sleepy, but we talked a bit, all the way until we reached chua chu kang. haha. took the LRT,(which is uber fun) haha, and reminds me was when i was a kid, going gaga over the sky train at the airport. haha.

When we finally reached, the kids were still not here yet. haha. So, settled some administrative stuff. We were given a "heaven room", haha, a hall with 2 rooms which can accomodate some of the activities. haha. and also, a huge empty netball court, and also, the void deck-s to carry out our activities. So, when the kids finally came, took some time to settle them down. haha. Together with jingjing, sihui and shawn, haha, we formed one groups. Boy, there were many many malay boys who came, and also, there were alot of chinese girls. haha. But I got a pure boys group, and majority of them who were malay. hahaha. There was faizal, naz, chee yan, sadesh,here and there. haha. can't really remember that exact. haha.

but, when they came, we had mass games at first. haha. Everybody's favourite game, BLOW WIND BLOW. hahaha. Everyone was having fun in small groups first, games like 7up, blow wind blow, were being played. haha. so, warm up was pretty fine. Then there were the EVERYBODY COMBINE games, haha, blow wind blow, and tree and squirrel. haha. At first for tree and squirrel, lili was shouting, then dont know how come, thereafter, i shouted giving all the commands. hahaha. and guess what i did for the last command.

"Everybodyy, quiet quiet! Got something very very very important to say"

-awkward silence"

"Earthquake."

HAHAHAHAH. omg, like anti climax, but it was fun.

Following that, it was tiki making. haha. well, for the courtesy of those who are reading and dont know what a tiki is, a tiki is sort of like a group flag, like, having to make them outta cardboard, paper, etc etc. AND BOY, DO WE HAVE A HARD TIME TRYING TO GET THEM INVOLVED. hahaha. like, i remember having to go to this boy, the heck care buay care one, using a lot of conviction, and like everything to try to get him to draw something on the flag. Then there was this, boy named sadesh, haha, he really liked avatar! haha. woa, but also, was damn amazed. haha. they came up with the group name, bulletproof champs. haha. and this boy named faizal. ahha. a really bright boy, and i guess most of the time, the group followed under him. haha. and woa, after that activity, you shouldve seen, all the group leaders went into "heaven room" and started grumbling.

Thereafter, it was lunch! hahahaha. Got their food, got them to settle down on the corridor outside the hall, and like, shawn and I did the hungry cheer. with help around i also i think. haha. they eat. I guess for the first day, few kind souls like KY, and J, stayed behind to eat with the kids, the rest of us couldnt wait to enter heaven room to go and eat. boy was it quiet. ahha.

Thereafter, it was station games. haha. Sisi, me, shawn brought them around. the stations. haha. It was really fun la. First, it was this dark obstacle course. which wasnt supposed to be scary, but we impromptu decide to make it scary also. haha. and for my group, they really really had a good time in the hall. haha. Thanks to those who set up the course man. hahaha. But then, was making all the funny noises, like some witch laugh, and everything to scare them. haha. When they come out ahh. WOAAA. they're like AGAIN AGAIN AGAIN, like some spoilt tellytubby doll. hahahah.

then after that, played the rest of the station games, like drawing acting and guessing. hahaha. They had a lottttt of fun doing that one. and also guessing the picture, and lastly, Having to go to the netball court to pick up objects with stuff lying around, like ropes, bamboo, and put it into a bucket. and guess what, all of us are damn amazed with those kids. cos, the organizers acnt even do it =.=. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. and during the games, cos i kept on shouting, making them to do cheers, that was what earned me the nick, "shouty." hahahaha.haha, but other ppl in class also got nicks, like J got the nick "giant",and SH got the nick name "ali baba(?!)" hahahah. yupyup.

Thereafter, it was mass dance. haha. With courtesy of lili and lala, haha, they taught the mass dance. haha. I guess everyone had fun, remembered vividly me and SJ turning round and round like mad ppl when the free style part came. hahaha.

Then it was time to go back. hahahaha. Boy, after that day everyone was like "poof" like dead beat la. haha. went back to simei to eat eighteen chefs after that, everyone tired on the train, hahahaha. then hanged around with sisi, shawn and SH at starbucks thereafter, saw miss wong. haha.

Then day 2, the 3rd day of having to be high from fiesta concert. haha. (gosh, never make me go through that again, but it was a good endurace test la). ahhaha. Okay, 2nd day, woa, it was so much more enjoyable than the first. Mainly cos the kids know us better, easier to cooperate, and everyone's happy in their groups. Started the day off with station games part ii. hahaha. this one was fine. haha. There was this one where they had to use do-re-mi to guide blindfolded people to get the objects in the room. They had to guess the people behind the rectangles from the powerpoint slides. Even words of which i didnt know how to say/describe, they did manage to guess it out! There was the draw the zui xiang one, etc etc. hahaha. Again, station games part 2 laa. hahaha. So, it was rather enjoyable. haha. Then, thereafter, they had to make a floatable ship/device like thingy which can support a bar of soap.

This is the damn amazing part. I NEVER KNEW KIDS COULD BE SO SMART. haha. faizal in my group, was like, woa. damn impressive. He's in robotics, yeah only p6, but then, he and his robotics team in his pri school won some competition to building a hovercraft model. hahaha. so, yeah, my group was the best in this. hahaha. Quickly, swiftly and smartlly, they built a really nice ship.. and guess what, haha, they've got to earn the materials by themselves. haha. Like doing butt dances, saying nice things to their grou leaders, having to go do something crazy. hahaha. But yeah. heres the ship that my group built:

COOL RIGHT. hahahaha. Yupyup, spent a bit of time on this i think, but then, am damn proud. Haha. the girls from other group saw this design and wanted to copy =.=. Happened in the process of tiki making also. haha. But then, haha, of course, calmed them down. haha. thereafter, they had to play this game, where they had to get across this maze like thingy as a group. haha. yeah a bit more games. then had a bit more of mass dance. haha. Prize presentation was after that. haha, havent got the pictures yet. but then, haha, yupyup, every group have to win something. haha. I mean, who likes to lose right. haha. Thereafter, when it was finally finished, everyone was like YAYYYY.

^the class with mr vijoo

^105!(((:

^Our name tags

Anyhow, im still kindda pissed at the pink rabbit issue. forget it la. insensitive, way insensitive. But then, haha, have to let it go, The class headed down to IMM thereafter for dinner. hahaha. had mos burger, walked around daiso, and headed straight home. and finally..

I CAN HAVE A GOOD NIGHTS REST OF 3 DAYS OF HIGH-ING.(((:. SLEEP HAS NEVER FELT SO GOOD.

Event 5: Letter writing.

TA-DA.

Im damn proud of myself. haha. 18 over letters. 2 pages, well for almost everyone, 2-3. haha. And continuous non stop writing. well, sort of laa. But it took me one whole day and my hand almost dropped. haha. to those who received, Im sorry if the handwriting is screwed)):. hha, but i think i did write okay la. haha. At first, when i rechecked everyone's, i saw zn's one was damn horribly written, so i took the courtesy to rewrite the whole letter. hahaha. so should be fine i guess. haha. To those who are close to me but didnt receive, haha, dont worry, the surprise will be on CNY/valentine's day. haha. but to those who receive, i hope that the letters will be read and kept i guess. haha. cos, yeah, it took me some effort to write it out. so, yupyup. haha. can still feel the ache. haha. so yupyup-

meanwhile, 5th day of the year. and haha, guess what, i forgot to mention that i started this year off with a BIG BANG by passing my A-M for lifesaving. omg, this test, was the worst of worst. From 8am in the morning of the pool till 5+ in the evening.

8-11: Waiting for tester.
11.50-5++pm: TEST

can you imagine? a 6 hour test. The tester was uber strict/scrutinize every detail. Omg, when i got back that day, i was T-O-T-A-L-L-Y beat. haha. but i didnt expect to pass, cos he was so strict, but i did. haha. so im here zi high-ing that i manage to start of the year with a bang. haha.

anyhow already made my resolutions for the year. I've only got a few, so, im not a greedy boy this year(:.

1. GOOD/SUPERB/AWESOME/MARVELLOUS results for at least, prelims and A LEVELS, which include-s A for my 4 H2s. haha, and also, A for PW and chinese(:.

2. gold with honours for syf(sth that i've been wanting very badly ever since hsc didnt get a gold for syf), and well, do well for flute la, basically.

3. (i wont say this one out)

4. GOLD FOR NAPFA, and be one of the top during the 2.4k run. haha. and be able to do at least 8 pull ups at one go.

haha, and was bored one day and decided to do the personality quiz thing on gino's blog. haha. quite interesting ah, true to some extent. but wth. haha. I make up less than 1% of the population(males even less so?!) haha, if you wanna find out, go to the profile sect to find out. haha. other than that, im off man. haha.

And for those who actually read, haha, thanks. I know its hard to read so many lines at one go. haha.

well, off i go. cya guys.

-jErM

2008-12-31T03:32:00.000-08:00

Weather: fine
31st december 2008
music: My love- west life.
event: LAST DAY OF 08!

haha, omg, everyone, HAPPY NEW YEAR'S EVE! haha. Its gonna be 09 soon. feeling excited.

on a side note, I think its time to send my flute for repair. The keypads are horribly sticky and its not producing the usual sound. Man, I hope that i can send it to windworks soon. I really hate the sound-s that it's producing right now, as in, hate playing. its like press press, and sticky sticky sound keeps on appearing. haha. but nvm, really hope to send it for repair soon. Anyhow, im really happy that 09's coming soon. did a bit of maclaurin's today. haha. like finally got a bit of gist of maclaurins. haha. going out for dinner. once again, happpy new year everyone!

-jErM

2008-12-23T17:25:00.000-08:00

Weather: Rainy
24th December 2008
Music: Fantasie Brilliante sur carmen, James Barnes third symphony
Event: Christmas eve

haha. okay I know that this was supposed to be a really really long post. But then again, I still havent got the pictures from class cip, fiesta and flute chalet. haha. Nvm, once i get them, i shall post it up here okay! haha. so it will be 3 posts following this post. hahaha. I shall touch the 3 briefly here. okay, so here are the random events that have been happening over the past few weeks. I think they are written in chronological order. haha, think only. Anyhow, I got back from flute chalet yesterday afternoon. and guess what, i slept from like 2pm/3pm yesterday all the way until this morning at about 7am. And the current time is like 9.43am. haha, woa. like first time, slept for more than 12 hours straight. haha. So here goes. an extremely word-y post once again. Again, if you're like super free and have nothing to do, go on reading. haha. shall work on chem bonding once i finish this post. Gosh, its been long since i've done any work.

Okay, before i start, the above picture was one of the tub of chocolate-koko krunch balls that meiyee made for me during my birthday. SHES A GREAT COOK. haha. Meiyee, if you do ever pop by. haha. thanks so much for the chocoballs. (haha, she gave me this during my birthday and its like posted up after many months. so so sorry ahh.) anyhow, thanks for being such an awesome friend.(:. you rock man. haha.

Okay, now the events!

Event 1: BRINGING S AND N for a random outing.

haha. After many talks with mum, i've come to realize that s will only feel the love from her dear bro in a materialistic way. or well, like bringing her out/giving her gifts and stuff. That day, i remembered that mum, dad and D went out for a dinner invited by some guy(they've had abalone and stuff. (graons)). haha. but nvm, so, at home, left me, s and n. haha. So, i've decided to bring them out. haha. I was suggesting bugis, but in the end at tanah merah, they said that they wanted to go to the airport. So yup. brought them to the airport. hahaha. s havent have had her dinner yet. haha. So, using my xin xin kuku na lai de birthday money, Decided to treat them at airport's sakae sushi. At first, they thought that i was joking. and when i really brought them in, they were giving the O.O expression. haha. Sharol ordered a bowl of tepenyaki thingy, natasha had some sushi, and i just drank green tea. S was like "woa, finally after 15 years". haha. Im like $!$^&*(*%@. But nvm la.haha. it just feels great making the ones that you love feel happy.(:. haha. anyhow, they didnt dare order much cos they were scared that i couldnt afford. haha. but nvm laa. good in a sense. Brought them around the airport to walk thereafter, hahaha. Walked around the terminals, and took the skytrain. haha. But before we left for the sky train. I tried to make them do some evil look staring at the dangerous items things on display, but failed. haha.

^ Failed attempt at looking dangerous

haha, thereafter, we went mad taking the skytrain. hahaha. Took random photos with my phone. haha. But we went crazy over the "please hold on to the handrails, we are now leaving for terminal 2". Then for the first time, by chance, all 3 of us gave the O.O expression, holding on to handrails. hahaha. Then we laughed, cos apparently, the whole train was quiet. so it was kindda paiseh la. haha. but nvm, we went mad.

Thereafter, when we reached the other terminals, we were walking around. Window shopping. haha. They did some drawing thing at terminal 3. haha. And also, I bought them chocolates from some dont know what high class chocolate shop la. hahaha. But for the first time, I actually splurged my money on my sisters, though it was sad like, parting away with my money, but it actually felt kindda good. haha. Also, we went into some shop, and i bought D, a "my melody" pouch, haha, cos she's going crazy over the cartoon lately. haha. again, we 3 did stupid stuff all around the terminals. Another one, would be at the T1 escalator, when s was heading north, me and N suddenly turned to the escalator and headed down to "evade". haha, but yeah la, almost succeeded. but failed. hahaha. S took a photo of herself below at the escalators.

There. hahaha. anyhow, yupyup, gonna bring them out today again as their bday presents. haha. N's bday is on christmas and S's bday's 5 days back. haha. So, yeah, am sure we're gonna have fun again today. haha, oh, and i've noted one thing. Its been really long since we quarrelled over little things man. Great that everyone's growing up. haha. Wonder where to bring them too later. Thinking of IMM, jurong east for shopping. Wanted swimming but weather doesnt look too good. haha. Maybe ice skating? But that's so copy cat-ing my bday's idea. haha. Nvm see how. But Im sure its eighteen chefs for dinner tonight.(:. hahaha. yeah, am sure today's gonna be a fun day. hahaha. (oh man, lately's so much about fun, I've gotta start on my hol hmk soon man. not like i havent started, but still alot not done. Like econs and gp. =x) haha.

Event 2: Going orchard to view the christmas lights

Okay, for this event, i've got nothing much to type about, except that the lights this year seems kindda bare, not like the usual lights. haha. But then, just walked around orchard road. haha.

^ S, D and me.

^ N and Me

haha, apparently N wasnt feeling too good that day. Took this photo to cheer her up. hahaha.

^S, mum and me(:

^ haha, see what i mean. haha.

There're other decos too laa, but the deco theme this year was like candies and stuff? So unless you people like, doughnuts, candies, sugars and all that stuff, yeah, hahaha, go somewhere else to celeb christmas. haha.

Event 3: S and N's bday celebration at Nai's house.

haha. That day at Nai's house, Kooma was there. hahaha. No laa, but lately she's always not at home. hahaha. Btw, kooma and nai live next to each other. Celebrated sharol's and N's bday there that day. haha.

There you go. hahah. But anyhow, that day, it was so fun. Kooma's there, and so was ah xiang jie, ah chun kor and nai. haha. Everyone was having so much fun. haha. we were playing all the black magic, "your hand is bigger than your face you got cancer", all that nonsense stuff laa. haha. Had a really good time laughing. hahaha.

Event 3: Lifesaving

haha, Am at AM(award of merit) this time round. haha. Feeling fine. haha. But the events are much tougher this time round. =/. Like swimming 75m towing 75m by the time of 5 mins. haha. But lucky for me, ive been passing my timing so far. haha. Also, old man(the instructor) this time round's so much better, in a sense that he's finally treating everyone there like adults. haha. Feeling okay. With mr mok there to help as well. haha. Remembered all my CPR, towing, struggling and stuff. haha. Test's on first jan. haha. but looking forth in a way. haha, feeling nervous. haha. But then, am feeling okay. Also, for the level of AM, there're like only 2 ppl this time round. (?!) But the good thing is, the other guy at least opened up. haha. So, yeah, its good. haha. Also, the sunday class people are all in BM this time round (Bronze medallion). haha. so, at least, sometimes talk to them la. One of the quieter guys in that class, also in BM, added me on MSN. surpirsingly, he can talk a whole lot online. But it feels weird, talking to him, Weird as in, he's weird kindda weird. But nvm la. haha. Anyhow, i've still yet to study all the emergency care treatment and stuff. Better study it soon, by the 28th/29th ive gotta be sure of everything. haha. with a timespan of 5 days. Im sure its enough la. haha. Thats if i can get the motivation to study and memorize all the treatments and stuff.

Event 3: Band camp, fiesta bonanza

Band camp day 1. haha. I remembered arriving in the band room early that day. Then, i think we practiced the most that day. Had a lot of fun practicing the songs that time. But i did remembered panicking over the danza solo. haha. also, i think i forgot to mention that there were 2 sec 4 flautists who came this time round, -zhining and oliver. haha. Am really HAPPY and PROUD to get such juniors and im HAPPY and PROUD of being in the flute section. haha., with xy, and c, and now with zn and o. haha. Everyone like totally rocks. haha. Anyhow, yeah, talked also, but practiced alot of the first day. There were games in the evening, and i remembered too screaming a hell lot at the grossness of everything. but then again, Stress reliver la. haha. Like, throwing a dead chickens body at the basket ball court (?!), haha, and having to get a bread with your face being thrown down, and also, crawling through chairs, with food and everything being thrown as you crawl, getting an egg across with a spoon, and you cant drop it, and WHILIST ALL THIS HAPPENING, you have the game ICs smearing/splashing all the gross food on your back, your hair, and everywhere la.(dont get me wrong) but, haha, yeah. Also, there was this game wher eyou had to retrieve eggs with your mouth, But the eggs were in this gross potion solution thingy, with flour and sesame seeds and ladys finger and cucumber and dont konw what. But i tasted floor i think. haha. Good stress reliever. When night arrived, i remembered i was feeling down, but i forgot the reason. But anyhow, that night, i remmebered i was talking to BH alone at the stage area ranting, and she was ranting too la. We were alone, at the stage, ranting. But im sure that invited scandals. but its k la, i guess. Its not true anyhow. haha.Went back to the bunk, and chatted to CY about stuff. haha. Had a really awesome time talking to him. yeah, and his knowledge just astounds me. haha. The second day, we just had morning prac. haha. Afternoon we slacked all the way. There was suposed to be bbq. But all i had was some rice and bee hoon. Hardcore basketballing that day. First, abc with the guys i think. haha. Jason, chin kiat, K, and all of them. haha got to know new juniors, thereafter, basketball-ed with Shuhadah and A. haha. Total= 4 hours of basketball. haha. the rest of the band were playing cards. haha. Anyhow, haha, had a lot of fun/stress out playing basketball, but alos blisters all over my feet. We 3 decided to sleep outdoors that night, at the assembly area. MAN, are the stars nice. haha.

Heres a view of the night sky taken by my 2 pix phone cam. haha, apparently, its not clear la. haha. Talked again at the outdoors, hahaha, irritated S by recording her voice and repeatedly play backing it. hahaha. Then, just when we were all about to sleep, rain started patting down. ITs damn #$%^&*( drama. haah. its like 1 drop, 2 drop. PRING PRONG PIANGG! ended up sleeping at the stage. haha. 3rd day of band camp, just played in the morning, clear up and went home.

Concert day finally arrived. hahaha. before i begin anything, haha, here are 3 pics goked out from everyone. haha. Again, I owe you guys a post about this. haha.

^ Snowball and me. haha.(:

^Oliver and me(:

^ Me, KR, sam and MY.

based on that day, okay i shall blog about it laa anyhow. At first, when the day started in the afternoon, Im like, Oh no, my tone's horrible, so are my articulations and everything, cos the hall's really reallyr eally cold. and i couldnt feel much support and everything. Also, i didnt had lunch that day cos i thought that there was gonna be a lunch session. But i missed out on that cos i didnt come the previous day. squeezed bread from the sandwich machine into my mouth and that machine swallowed me 2 bucks @%^&*(). haha. anyhow, yeah was feeling tired and everything. BH said that she needed to go out to play abit halfway in rehearsal in audi. Cos she said that she was losing her support. So, again, went out, warmed up warmed up abit, before going in again. hahaha. Rehearsed a bit more, but after going out to warm myself up, playing became okay okay again. haha. Then concert started.

When beautiful oregon started by the brasses Im like. "yes. good." haha, cos i remembered fiesta 07 didnt start out well. haha. During oregon, i felt that it was damn long. haha. But then, it was k i guess. But at the 7/4 part, lin sheng suddenly switched to conducing for the brasses. the whole woodwinds got lost. And im like oh no. But then we caught up again la. haha. So apparently, its like that. But then, screwed up some parts, did okay in some parts. but the song was okay i guess. Then danza came, at the start of the song, i remembered feeling uber uber uber nervous. haha. Then, managed to calm myself down. I remembered some of the high parts i screwed up la. but other than that, the song turned out okay okay for me. I know that my solo wasnt in unison with hasia. so HASIA, WE ARE GOING TO PLAY ANOTHER BASSOON-FLUTE part some time okay!. Anyhow, but i remembered when the solo was nearing. My vision spinned abit. it was like left right left right. Felt my heartbeat like DOONG DOONG. DOOONG DOONG. haha. But when the solo started, im like, yeah, dont be scared. then xy was like last time, last chance, last time, last chance. I was like, yes, do it well. Followed lin sheng. haha. And i guess it turned out all right. haha. AND I MANAGED TO HOLD MY BREATH FOR THE LAST ONE/SOLO, THAT LAST NOTE G. hahaha. YAYYYYYYYYY.(((:> But heard from kj that my first solo, that last g didnt managed to hold full length. Knew that it was breath. But then i knew that if i continued holding that G, im very sure that it will turn out awkward. haha. But yeah, i guess in a way, i should be proud of myself. Cos, I guess, this is the first solo, that i enjoyed myself, hearing my sound, reverb through the audi, with the band backing me up. haha. Yup. haha. Celebrate turned out fine in a way. haha. I loved the duet btw the flute and clar. haha. YAY. I DIDNT GLITCH AT THE A FLAT. haha. Cumbancero was fine. just that the surpirse for miss chew's like #$%^&*(, in a way that, when the birthday surpirse was there, miss chew wasnt there. haha. Yup, during the interval. Went to see people. haha. Took a photos. haha. thanks christine toshikas afor coming. haha(:. hahaha. and also, MY, KR and sam. haha. and also ELLIOT/LIOTTY. omg, i do miss fiesta 07 in a way)):. haha. Heard the alumni band perform, loads of christmas songs. haha. All i knew that there was only 1 flute during alumni band/jazz band. Could hear that kj was trying to project, but the brasses were playing loudly too. haha. But other than that, it was k. haha. Joyful exclamations, school song and masked man after that. haha. XY, your joyful solo's really nice. haha. really really, is can cry one. haha, but lin sheng was somewhere in the audience i guess. haha. Dont worry we still have one more prelude/syf to go(:. haha. encore was ... haha. but nvm laa. haha. Overall it was a wonderful concert..

ALL the way until i heard SP band at VCH. thanks sp band, gave me a great big wake up call. I thought that TJ band at fiesta was not bad. Until i heard you guys. Omg, then i thought we were kindda like pathetic compared to you all. thanks liot. haha you sounded awesome too man. hahaha. And that band got me addicted to barne's third symphony. hahaha. And also, im just like wow. Its like all the trumpeters are kwangyi's, there're like 15 nick chews on the horn. There're like 4 jonathan's on the bass. and like as though there're lots of xy on the flute. and omg, the clarinet section there was awesome. The double duet piece on clarinet backed up by mini wind band was. O.O. its been realy really really long, since i heard such awesome clarinet playing. Looks like our band have to work alot harder. When with Dion for that concert. Saw, G, N and K there too. haha. but still, yeah, it was a worth it concert. that 12 dollars spent is what i call, worth.

haha, omg, im feeling damn tired to go on blogging already. haha. For flute chalet, i shall blog about it when i upload the pictures. haha. Gonna upload pictures for bonanza soon i guess.

haha, will blog about CIP and flute chalet in the next 2 posts.

Oh ya, and ive come to realize how much time this year that ive wasted, doing stupid stuff. Its gonna be a much more time managed year in 09. Im sure. Okay, breakfast, chem bonding, and bringing S and N out. haha.

P.S. LH, i still owe you 16.70 and HQ, 5 bucks.

P.S.S. kj, thanks so much for all the tracks.haha.

Will update soon.

Give me the courage, to tell you anything.

Yeah, i think im loserish, but i guess, this is the first time.

and i guess in a way, i've got to learn too.

or else, Im sure that im going to remain single all my life.

Is not like as though we are really reallly really really close,

but i feel that at least, we're close.

Do i still stand a chance?

I hope i do. or as _ said,

If she doesnt like you back, at least you will know and move on.

But, just give me the courage, to tell first. and lets see how it'll turn out.

-jErM

2008-12-18T05:01:00.000-08:00

Weather: windy!
18th december 2008
music: James barnes third symphony.

Woa. haha. Im going to blog about a hell-lotta things soon i guess. Been so busy with everything lately that im like uber exhausted. I've still gotta collect photos here and there before i can post up anything. Be ready for an extremely long post. haha. Its been long since ive did a proper blog post. hahaha. will be waiting for the photos man, from cip and bonanza.

btw, liot, thanks loads for the invite to sp band concert. I wouldnt have wanted to miss it. and thanks for the wake up call that you gave. appreaciate it loads.

haha, gonna be back soon. See you guys for the next blog post man.

-jErM

2008-12-08T09:21:00.000-08:00

Weather: rained.
9th december 2008
music: Eroica- Tan dun.

Omg, today's such a bad day, and so was a bit of the previous days back. But its late la, shall not say out so much. but..

My phone's spoilt and i cant sms.

My ipodtouch is spoilt and i cant press the next key, the volume key is spoilt and some of the keyboard keys are spoilt.

My Specs are spoilt. Due to heavy basketballing the other day, my specs now got the ee-oo ee-oo sound whenever i touch the lens.

My flute's padkeys are horribly wet and damp from my wonderful saliva.):. I want a change of padkeys but then, concert's coming up. I guess i have to make do with cleaning paper. Argh.

My hair's spoilt cos i went swimming without a cap.

and finally, my health's spoilt cos of late night's rest.

=(. sucks. shall blog more soon man.

-jErM

2008-11-30T23:27:00.000-08:00

Weather: Grey skies, gonna rain
1st December 2008
music: Celebrate- shimizu Daisuke

omg, i cant believe this. WHERE ARE ALL MY LIFESAVING MATES. GAHHH. theres only 2 ppl in AM this time. zomg, i feel screwed. Wheres S, wheres CR, wheres everyone. omg, this time is with some quiet guy which belongs to the distinction batch. haiz. feeling freaking tired, with eyeballs feeling fried. haha. okay anyhow, blogging bout random events that happened of late.

Went for choir concert the other day, not bad, really not bad. Although S said that the choir got thrashed by guest choir, but still, haha, i still think that it’s not bad. Other than this, hanged out with L at the esplanade library the other day. Went crazy over scores. Feeling bad, cos like searched for a whole lot of flute scores with piano accompianment. Didnt manage to find any piano scores for herself. Im such a baddie. haha. But its k i guess, she’s gonna return there soon. anyhow, looking forth to a trip down to PRCS studio where there’s a piano there, I hope that the reverb there’s not bad. Lets hope that things are fine. Gonna try out 314, chaminade(okay, probably screw this one up, but hey, alr managed to reach the end of the piece[with some parts sounding like roti john, but nvm]), and 313(of which im totally gonna sight read this). Well, at least started abit, a weeny bit on the top of the piece. haha, also, went down back to mbs with D to help out with the mbs flutes, haha, seems fun. And best of all the instructors there are really nice. and the juniors there are all, well, Ting hua i guess. Unlike the image that i’ve always thought that primary school kids would be. Will go there to help out till the end of the holidays for whatever days that i can make it i guess. Its a joy helping them out. Not that my fluting is that good or whatsoever, but helping in whatever way i can i guess. Hanged out at xy’s house the other day as well with M and C, haha, had a reallly nice time there as well.

haha. yeah. omg, i hope that lifesaving's gonna be fine.. =/ and band too. mmm.

-jErM

2008-11-21T05:59:00.000-08:00

weather: Cloudy
21st November 2008
Music: Overture no 1/2 for wind band-syf set piece 09

haha, went back mbs with dion today for band. haha. not bad, really not bad for pri school standard. amazed, real amazed. haha. but nvm, blog more bout that more next time. haha. Quiz from kr~

Three names you go by:
-Jermain
-Jerm
-Toot gua (gua clan)

Three screen names that you have:
-jErM
-fluteboi
-jermboi

Three parts of your heritage:
-Flute
-Guas
-TJ-cian/Hasi-an

Three things that scare you:
-Scarily confident people
-S_ _ _ _ _s
-Horror movies

Three of your everyday essentials:
- PENCIL CASE (omg, i'll die without this)
- WATER BOTTLE( this too!)
- NOTES DURING LECTURES (hate it when i dont have notes)
- BOLSTER/BLANKET/PILLOW. (okay, extra but. haha.)

Three things you're wearing now:
-Underwear
-Pants
-specs

Three of your favourtie songs:
-You cant stop the beat( HAIRSPRAY!)
-right here, right now( HSM 3)
-Celebrate! (shimizu daisuke, haha, band song)

Two truths and a lie told (in no order):
-I love fluting
-I love studying
-Im a good,innocent, pure-minded boy and i've never told any lies in my whole entire life!
(i guess you all can tell which is the lie alr eh. haha)

Three of your favourite hobbies:
-Studying when im bored/depressed/when exams are nearing
-Fluting
-SLEEPING.

Three things you really wanna do badly now:
-FINISH UP THE F HOLIDAY HMK.
-Playing extreme makeover at concert speed
-Sleep.

Three careers you're considering:
-MARINE BIOLOGIST.
-TEACHER
-Working in a hospital (haha, doctor or some nurse? i dont know. haha)

Three places you wanna go to for vacation:
-AUSTRALIA!(great barrier reef)
-Amsterdam/London!
-Antartica!

Three things you want to do before you die:
-PLAY A FLUTE CONCERTO AT A CONCERT HALL.
-DIVE THE WORLD.
-REPAY EVERYTHING THAT I OWE TO EVERYONE. haha.

Three things that make you stereotypically a boy:
-Loving to sweat and leaving the sweat there till it dries
-Getting really excited whenever a certain topic is talked about.
-Cutting short hair/short nails

Three things that make you stereotypically a girl:
-Loving to scream.
-Being able to act bimbo
-Being able to act gay(like sashaying and stuff)
[omg, tell me i just didnt type that.]

Three people that you would like to see take this quiz too!:
-XINYUN
-ANDREA
-BAOHUI
[haha, but if anyone of you are feeling bored enough to take a quiz, go ahead! (:]

going off to rest. Maybe do a lil math. see how.

-jErM

2008-11-15T23:22:00.000-08:00

Weather: grey skies
16th November 2008
music: hsm 3, camp rock

haha, found a really nice phrase, decided to post it up, enjoy.

Inside out
When I was young and free and my imaginations had no limits, I dreamed of changing the world.

As i grew older and wiser, I realized the world would not change.

And i decided to shorten my sights somewhat and change only my country. But it too seemed immovable.

As i entered my twilight years, in one last desperate attempt, I sought to change only my family, those closest to me, but alas they would have none of it.

And now here I lie in on my death bed and realise (perhaps for the first time) that if only I'd change myself first, then by example I may have influenced my family and with their encouragement and support, I may have bettered my country, and who knows, I may have changed the world-

Real beautiful.

Lifesaving's seems to be gonna happen on the first 2 weeks of dec. Great. keeping fingers crossed that it wont affect my other activities too much.

-jErM

2008-11-11T08:42:00.000-08:00

Weather: night
11/12th November 2008
Music: hsm 3 songs.

Blog hopping, came across hsc flute-s blog. haha. Guess, I shall post up a lil something also.

Well, memories from hsc band were mostly from my section. I dont have much memories on the band as a whole, like MN's bonded batch, and perhaps the current batch now. So, yeah, mostly, my memories in hsc band were confined to the section. I guess, I am really really honoured to be in the hsc flutes, cos its a section that rocks. *kudos*, its a section thats awesome, wonderful and really,truly amazing. Its a section that helped me to grow stronger, its a section that helped me to be more mature, and its a section that has provided me with countless experiences that helped me to be who I am today. Without hsc flutes, I dont know what will happen. But im just glad that i have hsc flutes. I remember, when i was just sec 3/4 when i used to scribble the whole section from TX's batch all the way down to Sta,Jo,ZH's batch on my scores at the bottom where there's space. Well, and haha, mainly generation 2 flutes left me the most precious memories in my band years in hsc. Gen2, haha, if you're wondering, consists of My batch, down to Sta, jo's batch. haha. But as zh said, I guess a gen 3 is gonna come up soon. haha. But be it gen ace, gen 2 or gen 3, Im just glad that the section is still strong, bonded as 1, and as cool as ever. Its the sexiest section that i know. haha.

(omg, pause, this is bhb, but who cares, woohoo~)

Well, of course generation ace, left me a whole lot of memories also.

lets start with gen 2 first shall I.

QY: QY has always been somewhat close to me. same class for 2 years, sectionmates for 4. Always there to hear out probs, always there to cheer me up when im down(the ngee ann exchange experience), always there to go kee siao and high with me(remember the howls moving solo at sentosa, of which we both were freaking out at) and so many other countless experiences. Someone whom i really appreciate and treasure. and also, haha, nowadays, for the study sessions together with my 4e1 classmates.

A: Hamster. haha. Dearest hamster. haha. I guess, in this section, my batch is close la somewhat. haha. Hamster is supposed to be playing the piccolo, and i somewhat stole the role from her. *kill me*, i actually wished that Hamster could've continued playing the picc. It would be wonderful i guess. Hamster is a really nice girl, of which, yeah, haha, had a lot of fun during section outings, going siao and everything also. haha. She's also there for me to talk out probs if there're any, and yeah, really appreciate her for that. Also, haha, being scared together when there're issues to be scared of. Also, hamster should be proud of her height. and i really do mean it. haha. cos there're just somethings that only ppl with her height can do.

WJ: haha, dear junior. I guess, haha, could consider one of the closer ones? Initially I thought he was a guai kia... Maybe he still is.. haha, anyhow, Someone who i can share probs with, share both bad and good things with, share almost anything. Had childish fights, had mature talks, and well, just going siao on almost about anything. Though had tiffs, but, im somewhat glad that after every tiff, the bond just gets stronger. Someone, who intially I thought was some cute lil short junior, of which now, turned out to someone whos alr going to GROW TALLER THAN ME(panics), and yeah, someone whos really really smart at humanities. His used-to-be-all-so-cute-voice has disappeared(panics!), haha, but its kay, someone's growing up, *sniffs* haha, but then again, Im somewhat appreciative of WJ. haha. and of course, someone whom i enjoy tutoring as well.

Hil: hahaha, another close junior of mine which has mysteriously gone mia cos of Os. haha. but some siao kee lang girl also, well, if you get to know her well. Someone who have slimmed down a whole lot since sec 1. haha. And someone of which can share stuff too. haha. And also someone whom i really enjoy tutoring as well. haha. remember the sec 2 chemistry test of which both of them(jun and hil) started panicking like some mad ppl, haha, calmed them down, then helped them revise. really cant forget all those experiences, and also, the times going laughing mad in band.

Jo: haha. JOJO! dearest, krusty ker! haha, a junior which i always enjoy laughing with and caring for about. haha. And always damn happy to see me(of which im damn happy to see her as well). haha. some smart girl who managed to get her way into e1, haha. And of course, someone, whom i have high hopes for.

Sta: Dearest god sis! haha. someone whom i consider to be mature. yup, and someone i can share thoughts with. Someone who cares alot, and gives alot of encouragement with. Am damn proud to have such a junior as well, and am really really proud of her. She's smart, and doing really well in her studies. But am quite sad as she's gonna leave the school soon.):.

KP: okay, haha, kp has gone mia. but then yeah she's my god sis as well. Very smart girl, yup. but then, feeling that when she left the section, feeling somesort of a pity.=/.mm.

zh: haha, a boy who loves to go high all the time, and loves to go mad. Heard that he's doing really well in studies now in school. and yeah, going to America soon to study under mr komiyama. haha. Section's currently under him, so yeah, hope that the section's thriving well. yup.

Em: okay, i initially thought that she was this quiet guai guai girl, of which turned out to be some crazy girl. haha. which is good(:. haha. keep it that way! haha, and really hope that this fishball will stay cheerful

Win: haha. Impression is smart girl. haha. Quiet, guai. hahaha. Perhaps i havent seen her crazy side yet, so shant comment much. Other than that, hardworking girl! haha.

Yup, and so thats for juniors. haha. and as for seniors, haha, i guess, maybe i shall put it on the memoria meme. haha. Its gettin late, gettin tired.

Anyhow, dad had this sudden temple thing and its on friday. AND JUST COS OF THAT, I CANT GO FOR TP BAND CONCERT AND MN'S HOUSE SECTION THINGY))))))))))))):. sucks. really really sucks. DARN.. first L's bday celeb, then now this. haiz.

nvm, at least theres still section chalet to look forward to. yeah, gonna see everyone soon. Guess, some part of me, im really starting to miss my hsc flute section whole loads...

blog soon, cya guys.

-jErM